aNgElz Tt FeLl FrM tHe SkY

2008-06-25T00:22:00.000+08:00

I HAVE DECIDED TO SHIFT TO

www.gayfriedfriends.wordpress.com

(:
BYEBYE

2008-06-24T16:43:00.002+08:00

joel LEE from RP who stays in jurong east! he sucks cause he didn't tell me he knew my blog and i wrote lots of things damn it.

2008-06-23T15:18:00.002+08:00

People tagged with this quiz:
1) fitri is gay
2) timothy reu nonis (hahaha you're going to kill me?)
3) jadey
4) samm
5) manisha

[10]Firsts
First best friend: Jade
First pet: Hamsters
First piercing: Ears
First crush: Marcus HAHAHA omg i still remember that was primary school! :D
First cd: spice girls? HAHA
First car: i play with toy guns so no toy car
First stuffed animal: A lot which one?
First love: Songvith, though it was short haha
First place called home: TPY

[9] Lasts
Last beverage: MILO :D
Last car ride: saturday night
Last movie seen: the hulk (i hate the ending)
Last phone call: momo
Last song you listened to: it's not over by secondhand serenade
Last bubble bath: i can't remember
Last time you cried: last night! D:
Last thing you ate: vegetable rice! haha
Last bad thing you did: scolded FUCK YOU to yihan & i kind of tempted him wahahaha!

[8] have you evers
dated one of your best friends: hmm, YA I DID! haha
been arrested: no
sknny-dipped: no?!
been on a limo: i wish.
been cheated: yea many times ):
been in love: duh? hah
been in a car accident: nearly all the time in town haha
broken a bone: nope!

[7] Things you are wearing
top and skinnies with scarf

[6] Things you have done today
rDNA, sleep, eat, laugh, scold vulgarities hahaha

[5] Favourite things
1) Handphone
2) Bed
3) Laptop

[4] People you tell almost everything to
Gay, yihan, timmy, you know who

[3] Choices
Live or die: Live, duh?
Sweets or chocolates: Chocolates!!
Swim or run: i swear i'll drown if you throw me into the pool, im too lazy to run

[2] Things you want to do before you die
i have a long long list. haha

[1] Things you regret
Making the wrong decisions on a certain relationship.

2008-06-16T22:47:00.002+08:00

1. At which age do you want to get married?
Hmmm, i guess at the age of 24 to 28? :D

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or girlfriend?
BOTH? (:

3. Who is/ are the person/ people you trust most?
MUHAMMAD FITRI B ABDUL LATIF, yi han, husband, timmy, jade, samm, that person

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
i guess so? haha

5. What would you do if you saw someone abusing an innocent animal?
I will abuse that person 9987324987234 times worse, if that person was a guy i'll make sure he's got no father's day. if that person is a girl? i'll make sure she has no mother's day either.

6. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after rain?
NO. I always see people holding umbrellas

7. What is your goal for this year?
Eat, sleep, work, play and watch tv

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Definitely yes.

9. Have you ever broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
EH, i think so. shit i feel bad now ):

10. What feeling do you love the most?
Getting pampered and loved :D

11. What will you do if you are feeling sad?
Eat a lot lorh. Emo, listen to emo songs, cry on gay's shoulders

12. Does having a lot of bestfriends, really regard them as the real meaning of bestfriends?
I have lots of bestfriends, but there are only a few that I really talk to.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Of course, if the person does. & one of them is gay :D

14. Do you like to hang out with friends?
DUH? especially gay partners hot date/ day out! :D it makes me over the sun/ moon :D

15. What/Who do you think is/ are the most important in your life?
Family, Fitri, godma, that person, Jade, Samm, Yi han, husband, timmy, laptop, my handphone, my neighbour's dog.

16. If your boyfriend were to two-time you, what would you do?
Dump him. what else can i do? haha anyways if he does that he's not worth (: SO MANY FOREST, so i don't give a damn (:

17. How many person have you truly loved?
One & im still full of regrets up till now.

18. Have you felt the true meaning of love?
I did for a few months, but i stupidly threw it away.

19. If someone like you now, & you have a boyfriend, what will you do?
Ignore the person? (: & intro more pretty girls to him HAHA but if i like him i think that would be a different case. cause most probably my boyfriend isn't doing something that i like haha

20. Singlehood/ In a relationship
meaning now? Singlehood. (:

THREE MORE DAYS TO HOT DATE/ OUTING WITH GAY!
so exciting! i can't wait! :D
IMY GAY! HAVEN'T SEEN YOU IN FOREVER! (:

2008-06-15T00:18:00.002+08:00

currently i am still waiting for my photos.
some idiot isn't online yet.
damn it,
im starting to feel sleepy haha,
geez.

I SAW JADE! :D after 9827374687234 years! HAHAHA such a small small world lol. oh ya & dolly too. but then i didn't get to meet gay D: IMY GAY D:

THURSDAY OUR "HOT HOT" DATE IN VIVO HAHA

2008-06-13T23:36:00.001+08:00

just came back from my church camp

OUTBREAK
SHIT YOU!

singapore's still the best luh please
i feel so much cleaner now (:

oh pictures will be upload later :D

2008-06-06T22:07:00.002+08:00

Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while -
please promise me you'll try.
When you find that, once again, you long
to take your heart back and be free -
if you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me

We never said our love was evergreen,
or as unchanging as the sea -
but if you can still remember
stop and think of me

Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been

Think of me, think of me waking,
silent and resigned.
Imagine me, trying too hard
to put you from my mind.
Recall those days
look back on all those times,
think of the things we'll never do -
there will never be a day,
when I won't think of you

Flowers fades,
The fruits of summer fade,
They have decisions, so do we
but please promise me, that sometimes
you will think of me!

2008-06-04T21:01:00.002+08:00

It isn't a crime to want something
It isn't easy for me to let go
I know it isn't the same for you either

Take your sweet, sweet time
I will be here no matter what
Take your sweet, sweet time
I will be here for you baby,
Anytime

I will never stand in your way
Wherever your heart may lead you
I will love you the same
And I will be your comfort every day
Do you hear the words I say?

Don't worry, I won't leave
Just like what I promised you last night
"I'll never leave you, no matter what"
I'll keep it.

2008-06-03T22:43:00.001+08:00

bestie im stubborn.
what can you do about it? (:
im just

plain

STUBBORN (:

2008-05-28T00:23:00.000+08:00

gay you suck! <3

should i?
or should i not?

2008-05-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

this was what gay said to me on msn -.-

it's 531am gay
and ily!
hahaha
and imy!
and ihy!
you stupid son of a gun
go rot you!
we shall dine in hell!
dine in hell not long john silver!
for tonight we shall go to war!
live for nothing, or die for something
ROARRRRRR
HAHAHAA =p

wthh i seriously wonder why my gay partner is so retarded at 531 FREAKING AM IN THE BLOODY MORNING?!

then i asked him whether that phrase is from "300" this is what he said to me
"oh ya, i just watched lotr that's why" idiot he thought that phrase was from lotr. SIA LUH hahahahaha!

2008-05-17T00:16:00.002+08:00

i've got things to say but i can't put it in words,
it hurts so bad.
im trying not to show my tears
or show my hurt cause i know it'll hurt you twice as much.
but i just couldn't help it when you gave me that look,
tears just rolled down though i tried to control.
it wasn't of much used either.
im sorry for making you feel this way,
i never wanted this to happen,
i never knew it would either.
all i want is to see you happy once again,
just once more.

it was purely an accident,
im sorry ):

someone help me take my emotions away,
it's killing me ):

i wanna run away & hide,
& just sleep my days away.
how i wish i was born emotionless

2008-05-14T00:00:00.002+08:00

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

why am i always in such situations.
mannn, it's getting more complicated.
i don't want to get stuck in the same situation again.
please, no

& i got damn pissed off with a whale today.
don't really wanna talk about it anymore.
shall put it aside.
ASIDE!

i'll be there,
always be there for you gay.
no matter rain, sunshine, thunderstorm or whatever.
im always here for you my gay fried/bestie/partner
i love you gay! (:

thanks for always being there for me! <3

2008-05-07T23:32:00.003+08:00

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

it's wrong,
but we both feel so right.

2008-05-07T00:49:00.002+08:00

gay, thank you for always being there for me even though sometimes you don't have the mood to. but, i still fucking love you too (: BFFGAYFRIEDFRIENDS! <3

no.2, thanks mann you rock. thanks for cheering me up (as usual, you always find stupid things to make me laugh) i shall listen to what you asked me to do. & yes i do feel so much better now (:

tell me how to forget?
i don't know how
i feel bad
i don't know why
all i wanna say is im sorry ):

2008-05-05T21:40:00.002+08:00

school's been alright i guess, but there's too many things that's been happening.

too fast!

i can't catch up,

i don't know what to do.

i want to leave it aside but i can't.

this sucks.

i hope you know,

it's got nothing to do with you.

it's just me, myself

fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they?

2008-04-28T14:48:00.000+08:00

zomg, UnderstandingTest is starting in like 1 hour and 25 mins time. IM GOING TO DIE FOR IT D: im so sad now.

bye.

2008-04-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

oh yes,
im a pocky addict now

E56C played dog & bone and it was

GREAT!

although the part where jojo pushed me & i nearly fell -.- wasn't that great but overall WE ALL HAD LOTS OF LAUGHTER & FUN PUSHING EACH OTHER. haha.

oh wells, after that we were like so tired & it made me SOOO sleepy haha

oh nooo, my eyes are like half open now, i think im going to bed soon (: GOOD BYE :D

let's learn to let go

2008-04-22T00:23:00.002+08:00

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

oh wells, went to macs in the morning to study. zomg, i actually could study but once leo came i got distracted by him -.- HAHAHA cause he was so bloody restless. my goodness luhh.

wells after that we went to take a look at my new place. hahaha & we stoned (YA RIGHT) wells, we chat and stuff & i fell asleep on the bed while he was playing with my phone ringtones & songs.

that bugger kept changing songs every 0.00001 secs okays. until i got so fed up i woke up.

me: wth are you doing?

leo: got nice ringtones?

me: why?

leo: cause mine sucks

me: it's inside the phone you can send it yourself

leo: the problem is i don't know how to

me: zomggggg -.-

no wonder he kept changing the songs. -.- in the end out of 21 songs he only choose one song. hahaha how spastic. after that we dropped by lor 7 to have lunch. cause he kept complaining that he was hungry & MANN HE'S A PIG PLEASE.

in the morning(11am):
me: ate already?

leo: ehhhh kind of, yupp

me: okays (:

leo: you study first i'll walk around

after coming back(1130am):
leo: eh i saw my friend, he also pon school hahahaha, i ate with him

me: you ate again?

leo: ya :D

me: wthhh

in the afternoon (130pm)
leo: dannnnnnnnnnnnnn im hungryyyyyyyyyy can we go eat? :D

me: WTH?! HOW MUCH MUST YOU EAT?!

leo: i don't know im just damn hungry luhh

me: i think there are worms in your stomach hahaha

oh wells, after that we hanged out at the bus stop. yes, bus stop. hahaha wth please, we were lazy to go other places to hang out and since we were at the bus stop we just sat there & chat A LOT. haha oh wells, i think he's crazy in a certain sense. sometimes you just feel like slapping his face.

leo: eh stomach pain

me: go toilet and pang sai luh dummy

leo: cannot!

me: why? it's a toilet

leo: damn dirty luhh

me: PLEASE LUHH GO TO THE CLEANER ONES LIKE HDB HUBS ONE LUH

leo: thanks ah like i never go like that, it's still dirty luh!

me: wth stop being such a fussy pot cann.

leo: it's not that i don't want to, it's just that when i go in I CAN'T. when i had camp i can don't go to the toilet for like one week

me: wtf, i give up, i think NS you're going to die

leo: no, that's different, NS must learn to adapt & easy, natural

me: wtf, all the more you should adapt to new technologies given to your comfort when you use the bloody toilet. go toilet and pang sai luh then where you want to do it huh?

leo: in your face! :D

me: fuck you -.-

after that went back to school to meet willie cause he was waiting for me hahahahaha oh wells, while waiting for willie to finish class (i didn't go for class haha) emo came down (TSKTSK SOMEONE SKIPPED 5TH & 6TH PRESENTATION haha)

went to the library to STONE AT MY LAPTOP SCREEN.

im DAMN sad now ):
my laptop's got i don't know how many thousand virus and it's starting to affect my internet. sigh, i need to go & kill the virus soon

So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

2008-04-20T02:16:00.003+08:00

Well when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
I don't love you
Like I did,
yesterday

hurt me once,
hurt me twice,
damn.

i lost my heart to you.

but you'll never get it back ever again,
i swear.

im never gonna give you my heart again.

what you did,
what you said,
what i found out today?

it draws the line,
it fucking did.
im sorry boy,
no matter what you do even if you really still do love me is never gonna get me back,
never.

cause what you did,
fucking hurt me to the core.
what's the point of waiting?

i fucking waited for you,
only to find out that you've patched with your ex.
damn,
how gullible i was.
thanks a lot S.

im going to try to hate you from now onwards,
even if it kills me to do so.

im never gonna believe what you've said ):
so long,
goodbye.

2008-04-16T16:43:00.005+08:00

well, we always say that pictures tells a thousand words. (is that right? i can't really remember haha) oh wells, im too lazy to say what happened so yea (:

had long john's that day (:

HIS name is ziqq
& he is a BOY.

he was trying to steal fries from me

happy pic, became a.. i dont know what to say mann

look at how messy samm can be, haha

hi meet my bestfriend, gay patrick starfish! :D

& his new girlfriend, gay

while waiting I played around with jade's camera

this looks damn wrong

jade being the camera lady, most of the pictures, she was the one who took it haha

oh wells, today dian, willie, emo & i played CATCHING! during our breaks HAHA DAMN RETARDED I TELL YOU. hahahahaa zomg

at first we were playing racing, dian & i were sitting on the roller chairs & willie pushed her while emo pushed me. we raced to see who was first & YAY! we won the first round.

then it was the opposite and my god luhh emo was kind of heavy. confirm heavier than willie & of course dian & willie won the second round haha.

after that we got even more retarded. we started playing cathing. dian & i continued sitting on our roller chairs. emo & willie were in charged of pushing, see who can catch who first. fucking hilarious okay. haha even one faci who saw us playing outside was cheering for us.

im a bad pusher, haha i pushed emo into the wall HAHAHAAHHA oh wells, he wasn't hurt so yea. haha.

Walking around aimlessly by myself
Breathing a faint sigh, my breath turns white
Seasons change, and in this fleeting season
My tears fall for no reason
"Even now, I still love you"

The continuously falling sadness transforms into pure white snow
I'm always looking at the sky above me
Before this body disappears, I want to reach the wish I have now
Once more, I want to hold you

How many times have we not understood and hurt each other
But even at those times, we were still gentle
Engraved on the ring that you suddenly gave back to me
Was our promise that will never come true
"Even now, I remember"

These far off thoughts are just brilliant flashes in my memory
I wanted to be next to you
Even though I can't see you anymore, I'll always be next to you
I never want you to change

I can't erase those last tears you showed me, from my memory

In your heart, if I disappear along with all these snowflakes
I want to bloom in your heart once again
Don't forget the warmth of us being close together, and hugging
Don't forget even if you love someone else
I'll never let go, of the memory, of when I heard your voice last and so
I just want to fall into a deep sleep

I want to hold you once more,
just once more

2008-04-12T17:47:00.007+08:00

0kays i totally forgot what i wanted to blog about. but nvm, i finally got the photos from jade! :D haha oh wells, on thurs cause i had tuition so i had to leave school later

BUT

jade was taking FOREVER to finish doing whatever she had to do. so in the end i went down with willie, JL, dian & chiap chiap to have so called tea break HAHA. oh wells, i was hungry. what to do? (:

then after a while emma emma came down and i have got no freaking idea why he did haha. oh wells, after that met jadey to go to causeway point to do some shopping (her sneakers) & we met samm too.

so while waiting for ziqq, samm, jadey & i went walking around. went into 77th street to look for beanies. while samm and i were trying on we laughed cause we did something funny. then this bloody bitch (the person who was working there) came

samm: zomg, dan you look like an ah lian HAHHAHA
me: huh? really?! (laughs & quickly takes it out)
bitch: if you do not like it please do not insult it cause other people may appreciate it
me: what the fuck? ooookays (rolls eyes)

wah damn bitchy okays, even samm finds her bitchy. grr i so wanna kill someone now *#$&@*#$ we were just commenting how we look like in a beanie and she thought we're insulting the beanie. like wtf is fucking wrong with your ears?! is it like stuff with your father's balls? i think so eh? go dig it out luh but i don't think you can cause your brains are so tiny like peas that you can't even think that you've got balls in your ears.

after that we met ziqq, yupp & YES while waiting for ziqq, samm & i came up with something for ziqq haha. cause everyone keeps thinking that ziqq is a girl/bung. so yupp this is what we came up with.

haziq = his guy name
ziqq = his bung name
ziggy = his girl name

therefore he is
haziq the ziggy ziqq.

okays fine it's kind of retarded so yea HAHA oh wells. after that when ziqq came, we all went to gelare to grab a bite. my god, i couldn't stop laughing cause of ziqq's imitation of jade. fucking funny i tell you. poor jadey couldn't drink her latte. HAHAA

ziqq covering his face, to protect himself from jade's (spitting) latte

samm follows along too, cause she was afraid that the same thing would happen haha

2 idiots who couldn't stop laughing at jade hah (:

oh wells, it seriously was DAMN funny. hah so after that i went for tuition & i felt bloody sick. goodness, so i ended class earlier & went home.

finally it was the last day of the week! wells, i guess chemistry was alright. the only thing was not alright was the starting part, because i didn't have any chemistry background i had quite a difficult time to grasp it quickly.

& im sorry chiapchiap, song wen and aina if i asked any stupid questions okay? haha sorry!

after school met up with samm (retarded), jade (spastic) & ziqq (laughing potion) we all went to the library & after that i went to meet up with willie, dian, JL & song wen (samm came along too) to look for resources to study for our anatomy & physiology.

yes im that hardworking now, cause i can't fail. I REALLY CAN'T FAIL. haha oh wells, emma emma was suppose to meet me in the morning to give me my HELLO PANDA. but then he didn't come to class -.- nvm so i met him after school in the library.

BUT

guess what? when he came and look for me, he haven't bought the hello panda HAHAAH wah lao. so saddening please.

oh wells while searching for the books, samm & i did something stupid haha

samm: eh dan your brain! (points to the book) like a pea know
me: fuck you luh!
samm: FUCK ME LUHH! (with the stupid action that ziqq always does)
me: EEEE DON'T WANT
samm: then go fuck emma emma
me: WTF!? SIAO!
emma emma: -.-

HAHAHAHAHA samm is seriously damn retarded. her horny self is coming back again. zomg, our group's so gonna die mann. haha.

then after that samm & i went to buy some food (cause partially samm was being a whinny person) after eating we went off.

& by the time i was in the train emma emma finally bought the HELLO PANDA -.- sigh, i only can get to eat it on monday. i know i know you guys must be wondering why can't i buy it myself, that's because im just darn lazy HAHAHAHA oh wells and im still coughing and sick, so i can't eat too much, must share with someone so yea. haha

oh oh! yesterday we took quite a lot of pics on the way & during school time haha.

shut up i just woke up okays, damn sleepy

ziqq & samm having their "rushing" breakfast

i don't know wth he's doing haha

look at ziqq! he's yawning hahaha

retarded, bimbo & spastic

(: ziqq is always the out one out (if you realise that)

samm, being retarded as usual haha

I AM GOING TO KILL ZIQQ FOR THIS, i swear upon my eyeballs.
haha why must "bimbo" be in caps HUH HUH HUH?!

-.-

candid, I TOOK IT! :D haha

and last but not least, JADE! (the photographer of the day haha)

jade's equation:

samm retarded + dan bimbo + jade spastic + ziqq laughing poition (lp HAHAHA) =
ATOMIC LAUGHING BOMB

I LOVE THIS SONG (:
IT'S JUST SO SWEET PLEASE

Thank you for this moment
I've gotta say how beautiful you are
Of all the hopes and dreams I could have prayed for
Here you are
If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight it's you and I together
I'm so glad I'm your man

And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
tonight

I don't hear the music
When I'm looking in your eyes
But I feel the rhythm of your body
Close to mine
It's the way we touch, it soothes me
It's the way we'll always be
your kiss your pretty smile
you know i'd die for
oh baby
you're all i need

And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
just how much i really need you
did I tell you that I love you
tonight
tonight

I LUBB YOU TOO GAY BESTFRIEND/PARTNER A.K.A FITRI! :D

2008-04-09T17:44:00.000+08:00

ha
ha
ha
ha
ha
ha
ha

zomg, was talking to timmy to confirm something & i found out that

we both

have

telepathy! :D

2008-04-09T17:31:00.000+08:00

okays im in school now, trying to kill time ): so much time to spare till 630 comes )))): cause SAMMMM left school to meet hr aunt to go home together, im damn emo now ): die luhh i don't know how to survive tmr when i've got tuition at 8 ):

sighhhh

GAYYYY I HATE YOU! :D

2008-04-07T22:55:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL WAS GREAT & BAD at the same time! :D

it was great cause, i made new friends like RARA, Emmanuel & melvin. haha oh wells, lesson was TOUGH i tell you. & damn it the faci is freaking scary ): she's like so fierce & all. i don't really like her D:

found out that Emmanuel was jade's ex classmate! NO WONDER he looked so familiar haha & DINAH'S in jade's class! :D haha such a coincidence eh? HAH madness. oh wells, IM SO HUNGRY D:

met up with quite a few people today, till i got a little headache cause all wants to meet me at the same time HAHA.

first break,

HAPPILY only i bumped into THAT person. oh wells, i freaking lost my bet to timmy. now my punishment is to smile at him the next time i see him :/ haha

IT'S KIND OF SCARY KNOW.

i bumped into him 3 times in school today, even though obviously we are totally from different courses & buildings. i still bumped into him face to face. wth. i was fucking shocked, so was he (i could tell from his face luh, DUH!?)

it happened since sem 1 until now. happily thought i will never bump into someone that frequent again. who knows, it's still on going. HAHA oh wells, i shall be nice & smile then. lol!

so close to reaching the famous happy end,
almost believing it was not pretend.
so close,
but still so far.

2008-04-06T22:12:00.002+08:00

TMR IS SCHOOL

&

IM SICK
wth.

this sucks luhhhh zomgggg.
i want to die )):

BUT

there's one thing to celebrate now ((:
I CAN EAT SOLID FOOD AGAIN! REALLY REALLY EAT SOLID FOOD :DDDD
yay cann eat so many different stuff, except for chilli ):

OH WELLS,
one month will pass really soon :D

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

2008-04-05T23:47:00.007+08:00

haha wells, today i shifted back home. my goodness i just realised i've lots of things haha. so my grandma & i took a taxi back to toa payoh (:

after that mommy, john & i went to tampines ikea. SUPPPPPERRRR UBEEEERRR BIG i tell you. haha & the ride, my god, damn long until you can die HAHA. then we bought some stuff from ikea. haha

after that we went to bishan to meet AH DANNNNNN, our brother. lol then mommy brought us to sakae to EAT! haha didn't eat much cause we weren't happy with the service at all haha oh wells we took quite a lot of pictures :D

johnathan & i :D

dandan! & mommy! (:

johnathan is missing though haha

my first round :p

dandan! haha

he was being very naughty today

okays, now i think my brother's getting more gay haha

dandan did that! not me :/

LOOK LOOK! SO MEAN TO THE PEOPLE WORKING THERE.

wah lao damn disgusting okays. looks like johnathan's shit HAHAHAHAH.

i changed my mind.

I WANT A P2!!!!!!!!!!!!!
&@&$*@&#$&@*$#@*$*@*#$*@&$*@

but mommy got me U3, tHE black one, today. She said when i have the money i can go buy P2 & give her U3 :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD HEHEH SO HAPPY :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2008-04-04T12:41:00.000+08:00

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
And now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
I like peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
I like one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

2008-04-04T00:42:00.002+08:00

damn, i forgot what i wanted to blog. haha i actually thought of what i wanted to blog about. now i totally forgot about it. HAHA zomg, i think my stm is catching up with me. lol

BRING IT ON NO.1! IM NOT SCARED
see who win!
i'll prove that you're lying to me.
EH DON'T MAKE JON SAD LUHHH. HE SAID HE'S SAD HAHAHAHAHA

yay!!! shopping with yi han tmr :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD if you're seeing this, YI HAN DON'T BE LATE! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD remember! i need to eat soft food, no kfc okays? DDDDD:

2008-04-02T14:34:00.002+08:00

oh wells, just came back from a movie with leo just now. haha we watched "The orphanage" wells i think it was suppose to be a scary show but it wasn't that scary. ONLY one part, wah fuck that one FUCKING SCARY. the noises, banging, crying & screaming. wah seriously fuck, leo & i were like sinking into our chairs & he end up hugging my hand oh wells, i was scared too so i grabbed and hug his hand. HAHA. damn funny.

wells, was suppose to meet cody in school after that movie BUT when i called cody he said he's done -.- WAH LAO I BROUGHT MY LAPTOP ALL THE WAY JUST FOR HIM & HE FINISH BEFORE ME. :/

so ended up i went home instead & im happily blogging here. HAHA. oh wells, this is just to remind myself.

dan, cody owes you bubble tea now :DDDDDD cause he said it himself haha & ya luh you're nice by accompanying me luh. haha

okays done reminding (: hopefully i remember. haha oh wells, as every one knows yesterday was april fool's day right? HAHA GAY DARED ME TO PLAY THIS PRANK. lol he asked me to send to different people this "Hi! are you single? can i be your gf? (:" and he gave me a list of people haha and they were....

1. gonggong
2. leo!
3. ziqq
4. samm
5. qing yong! bestfriend no.1 (:
6. cody

gay even asked me to send it to him which was retarded so i didn't haha. now the best part of it was ALL THEIR REACTIONS :D

gonggong
"dumbdumb are you okay?"
hahaha then after that when i told him the truth, he called me an idiot. :/ haha

leo!
"hahaha what's up with that?"

ziqq
MANNN HIS WAS THE BEST REACTION hahah and im not gonna put it up. (: yes it was a dare & i had nothing better to do :D

samm
"did you sent to the wrong person?"
HAHAHAH wells, she happily replied me after 12 -.- so not funn i tell you

qing yong, bestfriend no.1
"you crazy? your pattern don't work on me mann!"
HAHA WAH LAO, SO NOT FUNN PLEASE CANN. HAHA oh wells cody's one was the best HAHA

cody
"sure why not (: i think you should ask me this question again tomorrow"
HAHAHAHAA I COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING PLEASE gosh! even after telling him that he asked me whether i was gonna ask him again tmr. HAHA SIAO!

haha i couldn't stop laughing the whole night please, don't believe? you can ask gay yourself, i was talking to him on the phone and i couldn't stop laughing. HAHAHA oh wells.

you asked me "am i that important to you?"
im utterly stun,
i don't know what to say
i've got nothing to say.
im sorry if i've broken your heart once again cause i've been doing that since 2 years ago.
& I really don't know the answer either

important

or not?

what's important, what's not?
i don't know either.
i don't have the answer.
but i think you have the answers,
you decide

it was nice seeing you being your crazy self once again

have fun in camp, mr GL (:

2008-03-31T11:11:00.004+08:00

This is seriously getting fuckingggg weird.

i actually dreamt of Cody, like WTF?!?!? *&@$#&@*$*@*$@ i just immediately woke up after that & i just sat there. IT'S FREAKING SCARY TO DREAM OF A FRIEND THAT YOU JUST TALKED TO A NIGHT AGO YOU KNOW?

I can't really remember what exactly did i dream of, BUT IT WAS CLEARLY CODY. fuck, this is scary mann.

think i've been staying up too long into the nights that it's kind of getting into my bloody brain. Im STILL freaked out please, gosh.

something's wrong with me luh haha i've been listening to emo music since yesterday, geez must be under the influence of nat when i met him at the funeral service HAHA. geez.

Well it's hard to explain but
I'll try if you let me
Well its hard to sustain
I'll cry if you let me
This doesn't change the way I
feel about you or your place
in my life
(please don't cry)
Can't you see I'm dying here?
A shot of broken heart that
is chased with fear

Angels cry when stars collide
I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way

Intentions that were pure
have turned obscure
Seconds into hours
Minutes into years
Don't ask me why
(please don't cry)
I cant tell you lies

Angels cry when stars collide
I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way.

My heart burns through
My chest to the floor
Tearing me silently although abruptly
Words cant hide as I'm taking you home
And I tried to see
Tried to understand your words
as I'm taking you home

Angels cry when stars collide
I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way

2008-03-30T00:47:00.005+08:00

YAYness,
mommy bought two new dresses for me again HAHA :D

mann whole family went out the whole day,

well basically it was,

fun

fun

fun! :D

took lots of pics with my brother while viewing furnitures haha.

just some random picture haha

thanks bro, for making me seem like some bloody loner

HAHAHAH, HE'S DEAD :D

BROTHER & SISTER ((:

time to think,
on a red couch

he's trying to enjoy life as much as he cann

even sleeping on the sofa bed

it's HUGE, i swear upon my eyeballs

it's funn playing around with mirrors :D

unwinding time

JOOOOOHHHHNNNNAAATHHHAN

HAHA GOTTCHA!

2008-03-29T00:22:00.002+08:00

zomggggg im in class E56C hahah where the fuck is E5?!! i don't even know where the hell is that, mann i think im gonna get lost in school again. hahahaha.

damn it luh, now i think i must sprint for UT. E5 LEH! E5 CAN?!!?!?!?! DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING FAR THAT IS!? i think must take taxi in the school to drive to E5 and stop there, then like that confirm cann make it in time for UTs. ):

oh wells, nvm the good thing is that i kind of saw some people in my class before. haha, more like bumped into them in school, yea haha. & my class's got people who's got difficult names to pronounce mann, like johannesen or longanathan or chiap. actually my name is just as hard to pronounce hahahahaha oh wells.

there's one name that i like a lot, thought it was a girl's name but found out otherwise. haha, his name is PEREIRA EMMANUEL CANISIUS nice right? but i have no freaking idea how to pronounce his name. haha

now im kind of dreading school after seeing what im gonna take in sem 1:
1. Anatomy & Physiology
2. Applied Chemistry I
3. Microbiology
4. Molecular and Cell Biology
5. Recombination DNA Technologies

HAHAH timmy said it sounds so chemically biomolecularly chim. oh wells after that we came up with something damn freaking retarded.

HOW TO BE PARTNERS IN CRIME:

step 0:
find another WILLING partner to join forces with you (DUH?! then what are partners for?)

step 0.5:
must have a topic on why should we be partners in crime - cause of timmy's bestfriend who saw snow (that's for our case)

step 1:
start with an aim in order to help your plan go smoothly

step 2:
get a target

step 3:
find out what kind of car he has (for this we actually targeted his friend's friend who had a lambo)

step 4:
plan to steal the car before he plans to sell it

step 5:
find out what time he is most active in Singapore

step 6:
target when alone

step 7:
don't fall down while sneaking

step 8:
timmy will grab him & dann will steal the car keys (dan's version)

but timmy had a different version, so it's up to you to choose

timmy will flirt with him, cause rich guys are most probably gay. then dann will steal his car keys. (timmy's version)

step 9:
dan will pass the keys to tim and he will drive, cause no.1 dan is too short to drive a lambo, no.2 dan bet that timm is a better driver than her

step 10:
SELL THE BLOODY CAR AND GO SEE SNOW DUH?

2008-03-28T13:08:00.002+08:00

this is freaking weird,

too weird that even i myself am questioning myself.

HOW CAN I POSSIBLY DREAM OF THE FUCKING SAME PERSON FOR 3 DAYS STRAIGHT?

& worse,
it's kind of like the same dream + same topic
for 3 straight days. MANNN.

okays i know this may not be the first time it's happening,
but usually i cann remember who's the person that i dreamt of
this time,
i can't even freaking remember who was it.
haha

something is wrong with my mind,
someone must have cast a spell on my brains.

eh whoever you are,
just take it away.
it's starting to freak me out

dreams can be scary at times too
though it may seem sweet

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
And it's just too hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I
Gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok

i know you are.

2008-03-27T19:40:00.005+08:00

seriously every single time you do this gay, I HAVE TO FUCKING DO IT ALSO.
why? cause i see my bloody name there. haha ah wells, i bet these few days you've been cursing & swearing at me right.

i know you're still pissed off at me gay, im sorry i swear upon my eyeballs. when school starts i'll buy you your first bubble tea okays? PROMISE, SWEAR UPON MY EYEBALLS! & imy too gay!!!! (awww, finally you're sweet enough to say something nice to me, FOR ONCE?!!?!)

i seriously wasn't myself that night, PMS cann. wth & you're my bestfriend & you couldn't even tell. SO MUCH FOR BEING MY GAY PARTNER, GAY!

but once again, im sorry

when you see this i guess you'll be back from SAS camp eh? hope you had funn, BLOODY HELL GET YOUR FUCKED UP PHONE REPAIRED PLEASE! it's fucking hard to contact your bloody ass.

eh call me or something when you see this,
& i mean it gay CALL or i'll murder your eyeballs then you can't look at eyecandies anymore.
& DON'T SO EMO CANN!? i saw your emo post now im emo again. wtf.

remember raisin & green ice cream are bestfriends :D

1.. How many months are there until your birthday? :: 3 months more D:

2. Have you gotten gum stuck in your hair? :: eh, nope

3.When was the last time you got straight A’s? :: IN SEM 1! HAHAHA

4. Where is your brother right now? :: On my right? using the desktop haha

5. Is your handwriting large, tiny, or normal? :: Normal and Normally ugly

6. Are you currently listening to a song? :: Yupp

7. Do you have a cell phone? :: Duhh? i'll die without one

8. Do you own any kind of yellow clothing? :: eh i just realised i don't have that colour haha

9. What do you hate about the opposite sex? :: they think we can be bullied easily. cb you better return me my money soon, im fucking broke.

10. How many piercings do you have? :: 4 piercings, haha planning to get a belly one, EH GAY 50 BUCKS = MY birthday present HAHA

11. What time is it? :: DINNER TIME! im dead hungry!

12.What color are your eyes? :: i can't be bothered

13. How are you today? :: I am not fine, i fainted somewhere today. haha

14. How long does it take you to take a shower? :: 900 seconds

15. Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? :: Depends on my mood, if i feel like dying i won't wear it.

16. What jewelry do you wear all the time? :: SEX BANDS hahaha

17. What would you say if your doc. told you were pregnant? :: FUCK YOU! don't bluff!

18.Do you believe in aliens? :: YES, FITRI MUHAMMAD IS ONE BIG, FAT & GREEN ALIEN. you'll see him in RP all the time from now onwards

19. Any siblings? :: 3

20. What are you doing tomorrow? :: i have no idea, WHO WANTS TO MEET ME IN THE MORNING? :D

21. Tell me a story about a scar you have. ::which scars? one is the one that nearly made me blind & the other one nearly needed stitches. need to elaborate? nah, lazy (:

22. What color are your socks? :: black

23. How long is your hair? :: longer thann samm's (:

24. What school do you go to? :: Rp.

25. What are you allergic to? :: Fitri's nonsense

26. Can others make you cry easily? :: er, yes. shut up, i have feelings & i cry. not like you, heartless.

27. Whose house did you last go to? :: is home counted? if not the last house i went to was zomg, that person's house that i do not want to think about at all. ah fuck.

28. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? :: ij's green house? haha

29. Who is your best friend? :: Gay,the one I hate most too. :D

30. Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow? :: your grandpa's boxers, if he wears one in the first place.

37. What are your favorite color(s)? :: Red,black, green, purple and white.

38. Do you know anyone who lives in another state? :: yea a few, why?

39. Are you easily confused? :: YESSSSS.

40. Who have you talked to today? :: lots of people? haha

41. How has the past week been? :: Like fuck

42. Do you like anyone at the moment? :: i don't know & don't want to think about it either

43.What made you happy today? :: nothing, i've been sick the whole day. SOMEONE MAKE ME HAPPY NOW. haha

44.Do you like thunderstorms? :: who likes it?

45. Do you watch Hannah Montana? :: fuck you gay, she's not an animal. she's a teenage singer DUMBASS.

46. When’s the last time you cried? :: tuesday early early early early morning, 5am

48. What’s the weather like right now? :: cold

49. What color is your hair brush? :: i don't use a brush, i use a comb

50. Do you trust others easily? :: very easily, the only person that i don't believe easily is ziqq, cause most of the time he's trying to bluff me. YUPP, IT'S THE TRUTH - i don't lie.

fuck, seriously today fucking sucks. met manisha at tpy & we went tanning. who knew that i had such bad cramps that i fucking nearly fainted into the bloody pool.

was in such pain that,

i couldn't talk.
i couldn't walk.
i couldn't think.
i couldn't see properly.
i couldn't hear properly either.

practically,
i blacked out for a while.

& it had to fucking rain so heavily, so i told manisha to call a cab so i could take it home. i went home & my mom said

"okays this is very bad, you look like a ghost, walk like one, talk like one, feels like one too."

what a time to make funn of me, thanks ah mommy. :/

i think i took 3 panadols at one shot, finally the pain went away after 2 hours. like GOSH, i hate this time of the month. i think im dying too, cause i never suffered so much in my entire life before.

oh wells,
i've got no choice but to cancel my lessons with kok soon today.
sigh, got to have make up lessons this sat morning.

mann, so many people that i know are coming to rp. YAY which means, more friends! haha :D
they are,

daryl chia the scary rugby player, yes it's scary watching him play rugby he's DAMN VIOLENT despite having a very gentle looking face. hahaha. went for one of his games before, most of the time im like covering my face to avoid seeing him fall down. haha

fitri, my gay partner/fried/bestfriend/ green ice cream. who is a big fat green alien

fitri's cousin who's name i totally forgot haha

dolly, the funny joker

derek! dye-ing hair partner

& samuel, whom i totally DISLIKE.

ah wells,
im damn bored,
gay come home soon! haha! got lots to tell you!

I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led

2008-03-24T17:29:00.002+08:00

YAYness!

finally the internet is up! im not that bored anymore! (: but i guess i've got to go soon like in an hours time & damn it's gonna bloody hell rain!

these few days i've been shifting house & i've been really busy. cb! my stupid keyboard for the letter "v" is not working properly :/

oh wells, i just need to go off now. when the house is settled i guess i'll put pictures up :D

2008-03-19T01:36:00.002+08:00

OKAYS, im like back at tpy haha ah wells, there's so much to pack up luhh please. zomg, i think im gonna go crazy packing my stuff, i left 2 days to pack up ):

HELP me

damn today was seriously a long day, have been teaching since 530 till 945 haha. cann die please, BUT one of my student's parent bought me chocolate waffle! :DDDDDD which made me so happy & alive HAHA.

zomg this was what i was trying to teach my pri 1 student

"say BREad"
"BLEad"
"nonono BRRRRREEEadddd"
"BBBBBBLLLEEEEEad"

hahaha so cute luh please, when he finally could pronounce "bread" he was like smiling at me & jumping around saying he could say "bread" haha.

wells, my mom is kind of taking a rest now & we'll carry on packing later. geez, it's 0212 now haha. & i still don't feel sleepy & fuck yes im falling sick soon i think :/

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

tasha maybe,
i guess,
for once you're right
im going to try to be the person i used to be

2008-03-17T11:43:00.001+08:00

i am bored & kind of sleepy
oh wells,
got to go off soon anyways.

im feeling weird

2008-03-16T17:57:00.003+08:00

I FREAKING DYED MY HAIR DARK RED. though it can't really be seen but oh wells, I STILL LIKE IT THOUGH :D hahahaha. ah wells, im kind of lazy to blog now cause i've got lots of stuff to pack!

okays when my new house is really done then i'll upload all the pretty photos HAHAHA oh wells, im damn hungry now :/

I WANT TO PUNCH YOUR FACE
STOP BLUFFING ME!
hahahaha.

GAY,
YOU SUCK (:
& i just wanna say how much i......

fucking hate you (:
i know you hate me too :D hahahaha

emo song time! :D hahaha

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

It's not always the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

2008-03-11T14:15:00.005+08:00

meeting up with leo was a disaster mann i tell you, we practically played hide & seek at bishan park -.- haha. oh wells, nvm im used to it. the other time we played hide and seek at where? amk wtf.

i am promoting my gay partner/ bestfriend cause he said he wants a gf for his birthday HAHA i think you're gonna kill me gay lol.

if you are looking for a guy like gay, i strongly recommend you to date gay. he would be the perfect match for you

what gay wants in a girl (according to what he said last night)
1. must wear spectacles, "not round round one, must be rectangle like mine"
2. can joke
3. can talk crap
4. must be humble
5. "must be clever, but i must be cleverer than her"
6. cannot have big boobs "i don't like pple see when go out, must be boobless"
7. skin cannot be too white, "must be like R****** one"
8. must have ponytail
9. must speak fluent english
10. must be rich "so i can eat her money" (KIDDING)

seriously number 6. is wtf luhh. i seriously burst out laughing when i heard him say that. haha. oh yea forgot to say that number 10. is optional alrights? haha so whoever is interested you cann go to his blog and ask him HAHAHA.

stupid gay since you did that TOUCHING sentence i shall do it too. HAHA FUCK YOU LUH! always doing things then i got to copy and paste again & do it too or else you'll say i have no heart. haha.

1] Who has your heart?
- ERRM myself? duh? haha actually, EH I DON'T KNOW SIA. my heart's lost

2] How did you wake up this morning?
- DEREK'S RANDOM MSG AT 4AM?! *@&$*@$#

3] Which is more romantic: sunrise or
sunset?
- both cann? unlike gay who's abnormal, saying that volcano's explosion is romantic

4] Are you wearing any clothing?
- DUH? then what?

5] What did you do last night?
- talked to gay on the phone & recorded what he wanted in a girl (wells the list is up there (:)

6] Who was the last person you
kissed?
-i didn't kiss him, he kissed me all of a sudden. kind of shocked for like 5 mins

7] Would you kiss that person, again?
- i don't think i would

8] Did you brush your teeth this
morning?
- OF COURSE

9] Have you ever been on the radio?
- Nope

10] What did you drink today?
- Milo

11] Do you like honey?
- YAYNESS :D

12] What's the last thing you broke?
- eh gay how in the world do you break your virginity? stupid. i broke my phone into pieces i think. haha

13] Do you know your bf/gf well?
- Broken up ):

14] Did you sing at all today?
- YES! "Sing it, sucking too hard on your lollipop. oh love's gonna get you down. say love, say love, oh love's gonna get you down"

15] When's the last time you cried?
- Two days ago (sunday)

16] How many letters are there in
your name?
- 9, MORE THAN YOU GAY! IN YOUR FUCKING FACE haha

17] When did you go swimming last?
- 12 years ago? eh i don't even know how to swim luhh cann wtf.

18] Do you love anyone other than
family?
- yes i love you too gay, BE TOUCHED MANN! haha! though i hate you at the same time too HAHA

19] Do you have any tattoos or hennas?
- NOOOO

20] Do you live near your best friend?
- ehhh which bestfriend?

21] Are you a Bon Jovi fan?
- never liked him

22] Can you play guitar?
- YES YES YES YES YES

23] Do you believe in love?
- UHUHHH

24] Do you hug or kiss bf/gf before.
-UHUHHHH then what? kick him?

25] How long have you been with ur
bf/gf?
- ex bf? 5-6 months. EH LATER I EMO AGAIN HOW.

geez, gonna have lessons to teach again later. haha EH BESTFRIEND NO.1 i don't mind teaching you emaths. PAY ME FIRST hahahaha! kidding luhh! (:

this is ARUL he's so tiny please but adorable haha
he keeps thinking that 2 + 3 = 6
& i have no freaking idea why haha.

this is KOK SOON :D he's from vietnam (: he pronounces helicopter as "hillicooptor" HAHAHAHA so cute luh please.

I went walking with my mama one day
When she warned me what people say
Live your life until love is found
'Cause love's gonna get you down

Take a look at the girl next door
She's a player and a down right bore
Jesus loves her, she wants more
Oh bad girls get you down

Sing it
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh love's gonna get you down
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh love's gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh love's gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh love's gonna get you down

Mama told me what I should know
Too much candy gonna rot your soul
If she loves you, let her go
'Cause love only gets you down
Take a look at a boy like me
Never stood on my own two feet
Now I'm blue, as I can be
Oh love come get me down

2008-03-10T15:08:00.002+08:00

oh wells,
it's such a gloomy day mann.

have lessons on later, kind of happy though (: cause i get to see Arul & Dan, haha both are so adorable please. (:

when i have proper connection i shall upload their photos. (:

i seriously have no idea on what to blog about. ah wells, nvm. haha

I GOT MY 90 BUCKS ALREADY! :DDD

HAPPY HAPPY (:

sigh, i've got to wear my glasses now cause i forgot to get my soaking solution for my contacts. mann, im still trying to adjust to the glasses :/

i think i look older.
HAHA

oh wells, IM SO GONNA DYE MY HAIR WITH DEREK ON FRIDAY! :DDDD derek get your ass back to singapore soon! HAHA. (you better read this)

IM BORED
full stop

IT'S RAINING
full stop

AND IM STARTING TO FEEL SLEEPY
full stop

I CAN'T WAIT TO GET MORE MONEY THIS THURSDAY
full stop

I WANT TO FEEL RICH
full stop

I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING
full stop

MY GOSH, I CAN TELL IM SERIOUSLY DAMN BORED
full stop

OKAYS ENOUGH
full stop

wells, went to collect my 90 BUCKS yesterday (which was a sunday) ah wells, i took a really long bus ride there though, amazingly i didn't fall asleep haha cause i was kind of sleepy. went all the way to plazza sing to collect that lovely 90 BUCKS but the person i had to meet was not lovely at all, he was creepy! :/

i was damn early, like for once haha i came 30 mins earlier. thank goodness ziqqy was early too haha YAY so i need not wait alone too haha. ah wells, samm was UBER late cause she thought when i said i was gonna be kind of late, she actually thought i was gonna be very late! hahaha

oh wells, so we waited for sammy for quite a while & we took our 90 BUCKS first (: & i helped tasha collect her pay first. oh wells, she couldn't make it :/ haha anyways went to the bank and stuff to do some banking.

after that sammy came with a gloomy face, she was UBER pissed off with the pervert haha OH WELLS, nothing new cause he pisses the fuck out of everyone all the time. thank goodness im not in the same course as him.

BUT

sadly, we're in the same school. SIGH

after that sammy & i couldn't decide on which place to have our dinner & poor ziqqy was suffering HAHA cause he was kind of having lots of aches all over his body. so we went to swensens to have bake rice & after that we walked around & went straight to long john silver to slack & of course ziqqy went to have his dinner there.

oh wells,
i forgot.
got reminded.
got upset.
got others upset as wells.

dan,
you suck.
fuck you.

2008-03-08T14:56:00.016+08:00

okays seriously, im still suffering from shock since yesterday night's results.

DANNY NOREIGNA GOT OUT?! WTF IS WRONG WITH AMERICA'S CHOICE!?!

im damn EMO about the results now ):

something is fucking wrong with friendster. i could upload some pictures but the picture that i took with samm can't seem to upload. sorry samm, i think friendster doesn't like your picture. HAHA.

friendster is being a bitch now & im damn irritated with it & some other irritating pest. only Qing Yong,bestfriend number 1, knows who im talking about. hahaha.

anyways was "working" for the past five days, it was kind of funn though cause sammy & ziqqy were "working" with me too. YES! 90 BUCKS! haha.

wells, took quite a few pictures too so yupp. gonna upload them now. ah yes (:

this was kind of the stack that we have to give out to ntu students each day lol. but ah wells, on the first day we gave out like a thousand of them so the rest of the days were like slacking lol.

it looks kind of thick eh? wells, just standing at the bus stop & we could finish these in 30 mins (:

so much for "working". ziqq & i were deciding on what breakfast to eat while waiting for samm to come (who was very late) haha.

samm's beautiful masterpiece (:

but sadly it got destroyed by someone's jealousy. KIDDING haha

my favourite grape sweet :DDDD sammy & ziqqy ate the last few though. oh wells, gonna get more soon. & i had a bloody hard time trying to take this picture, cause stupid ziqq kept blowing the wrapper away. idiot :/

samm was so hard at work, HAHA!

whereas someone else was hard at work at something else. haha

SERIOUSLY, i can't stop laughing at this picture haha

so on the last day, we all took some pictures haha.

samm & i! :D

grandma & her "i so wanna be cool with these shades" grandson HAHA

yes i took samm's glasses HAHA

I LIKE ZIQQ'S SHADES but sadly it doesn't suit me HAHA

oh wells, it was funn funn funn! (: HAHAHAHA bestfriend no1 & i were talking about things in common that we have lol! seriously it was damn funny (:

me: i got 2 eyecandies now HAHAHA
no.1: ... & YOU SAY ME IN YOUR BLOG, YOU YOURSELF NO DIFFERENCE! NO WONDER WE ARE BESTFRIENDS
me: HAHAH DUH?! BESTFRIENDS MUST HAVE THINGS IN COMMON! HAHAHAHA WTF
no.1: WE LOVE EYECANDIES

HAHAHA WTF! from that conversation, we found out we have HUGE things that are common. HAHAHA. we both got eyecandies, duh? who doesn't have eyecandies luh. it's common. haha. EH BESTFRIEND AT LEAST EYECANDIES IS BETTER THAN HAVING CRUSHES RIGHT? that one seriously cannot make it i tell you.

this was a conversation with a person that i totally forgot who he was

him: hi
me: hello
him: remember me?
me: er no.
him: i think last time i dated you out, but i never seem to turn up. opps sorry.
me: er no? i don't even remember dating anyone who never seem to turn up

then he gave me his number which i have no idea why & i couldn't be fucking bothered to look at it.

him: many year ago, when you were in sec school ba
me: erm in secondary school, i never got rejected in any of my dates
him: o maybe i got the wrong pple sorry, can intro a bit? everytime see you online but never chat

wtf how fucking thick skin cann he get mann? stupid flirt. i purposely said i don't remember him, actually i do remember him cause he was a fucking flirt that i couldn't stand at all. damn &@*$#&@#*$ who wants to even date you omg -.-

i told bestfriend no.1 about it and he was the funniest cann.

no.1: tell him, little boy! mas selamat on the loose, don't act hong girls later you get kidnap! & pple will SCHEME you again!
me: HAHAHA WTF! THAT'S DAMN FUNNY HAHAHA.

hahaha! he had to use the word "scheme", cause that guy's nick was "i will scheme once again, steal your heart & never return it back to you". nb HAHAHAH fucking funny.

HAHAH YES! im not THAT gullible anymore :D

no.1: i stopped smoking already
me: are you sure or not? DON'T BLUFF
no.1: k cannot lie, i just bought 1 pack

HAHAHAHA YES! it's working (:

what i learnt today: for guys smoking cold cigs will reduce sperm count
HAHAH I LEARNT IT FROM BESTFRIEND NO.1 lol

& bestfriend no.1 actually said something nice to me today (LIKE FINALLY?!?!) awwww (:

no.1: maggie mee's bad for health
me: shut up, i've been eating maggie mee for a week now.
no.1: wtf you're dying soon
me: wtf no im immortal, i won't die by eating maggie mee HAHA
no.1: LOL k, the chemical they use to stick the maggie mee together is the same chemical used to stick Styrofoam together it's a cancer causing agent
me: SHUT UP DON'T CURSE ME, YOU'RE LIKE SAYING IM GONNA GET CANCER CANN
no.1: im just warning you, i don't want my bestfriend to leave me so early

AWWWW HE FINALLY SAID SOMETHING NICE TO ME! FOR ONCE?! HAHAHA :DDD im so touched (:

OH FUCK IM FUCKING LATE TO MEET LEO
BYE!

pre-occupied without you,
i cannot live at all.
im trying to move on,
but it doesn't seem to be working.
can you tell?

2008-03-02T14:27:00.003+08:00

I LIKE MY NEW SKIN! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i wanna go tanning soon!
random much (:

im bored mann, oh wells went for the stupid *@&$#@*#$&@ briefing yesterday & oh mmmmmyyy Goddd tasha was fucking late. :/ i was kind of pissed off, not with her though. haha but i was fine after a while, just don't like waiting for people for too long, yea.

there was this stupid figure like thing that was wearing some bao qing tian suit. fuck. it scared the fuck out of me. wth.

HAHAHAH first thing when tasha saw jason, she was like "wtf is he fucking gay?" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! then ziqq said "he looks gay" HAAHHAHAHAAHAHHAHA now everyone thinks he's gay. wtf HAHAHAAHHA. okays (:

i was so bored i could even think of some things i could compare him with:
1. he's as psychotic as a mad mann from the hospital
2. he's as freaky as a clown
3. he's as gay as purple
4. he's as stupid as a housefly
5. he's as irritating as a mosquito

okays i can't think anymore. :/

YAYY. job & another new tuition lesson starts tmr. haha ah wells, $6/hour giving out really nice postcards like thing at NTU from mon to fri, 11am-2pm. it's alright i guess. you're welcome ziqq! :D haha

i just saw gay's blog. FUCK YOU GAY! im so gonna do that stupid questionnaire thing too. EH GAY WHERE'S MY SONG? IM WAITING. :/

1. Whats so good about the person you
love?
`actually i don't have anyone i love now HAHA.

2. So where's your dad?
`i don't know? i think he died, haven't seen him in 12 years already.

3.Do you drive yet?
`I WISH I COULD haha

4. How do you feel about racism?
`everyone's racist, somehow?

5. Who's the sexiest person alive?
`PATRICK STARFISH haha

6. Who was the last person you talked
to on MSN or AIM ?
`EVIL TWIN manisha.

7. On a sunday night, what do you
usually do?
`rot in front of the teevee?

8. Name a song that reminds you of old
memories.
`too close for comfort

9. Do you like the color gray?
`Not really, boring colour

10. Is there someone you really can't
stop thinking about?
`YES. omg just shoot me

11. Look outside, how's the weather?
`cold, drizzling

12. Are you jealous of anyone right
now?
` I'm jealous of, i don't know either HAHA

13. Has anyone thought you liked them,
but you really didn't?
`ehhh yea, kind of embarrassing though

14. Last time you didn't tell the
truth?
` Long ago?

15. Name something great that happened
`I ATE WAN WAN LAST NIGHT! :D

16. Do you regret doing something
today?
`I haven't done anything yet apart from rotting

17. What would you like to tell your
bestfriend?
`FUCK YOU GAY, I FUCKING HATE YOU TOO!

18. When you think of rainbow, what
color pops in your head?
`PURPLE

19. Do you believe in aliens?
`wait till i see one, then i'll tell you

20. Where would you like to be?
`in bed

21. What is the worst thing your
parents could do?
`take away my phone.

22. Have you been happy recently?
`VERY HAPPY! once HAHA

23. Do you like receiving balloons on
your birthday?
`YES, so long you don't pop it in front of me

24. Math, English, Science, or Social
Studies?
`Maths

25. What are you currently listening
to?
`She's like a star

26. Do you have limewire?
`NOOOOOO

27. Do you wish you were somewhere far
far away?
`I wish i was in Antarctica feeding the penguins & polar bear

28. Who do you think is the best
newcoming artist?
`DAVID ARCHULETA, shut up gay, he's not gay. fuck you!

30. Is lying ever acceptable?
`tell me, who doesn't lie?

31. What was the last movie you
watched?
`omg that stupid "cloverfield" -.-

32 . Name someone who has turned your
life around at some point.
`Gay, he turned my world upside down with his nonsense. HAHAHA

33. How is your heart lately?
`My heart hasn't been here lately, so i don't know

2008-02-29T13:13:00.002+08:00

i just realised i have NO COVERED SHOES to wear at all & i have to come back all the way home just to collect ONE stupid covered shoes that i haven't worn for ka-zillion years. mann. & i just realised MY FEET DIDN'T GROW AT ALL hahahaha! wtf.

STUPID BRIEFING! WHY MUST WE FUCKING WEAR COVERED SHOES :/

stupid now, OH CRAP I JUST REMEMBERED I FORGOT TO REPLY SAMM. ah damn it why am i so soft hearted.

SAMM STOP WHINING TO ME OKAYS. (if you're seeing this)

can't stand it when people whines at me, i'll just give in. SIGH dan you're soooo dumb :/

double YAYYness, gonna meet evil twin manisha & sandra laterrrrrr we're gonna go marina for some exhibition thingy that im not really sure what it is about. AH WELLS. hahaha just go out for the sake of GOING OUT :D

tmr gonna go for the STUPID BRIEFING @&#$*@*#&$*@# stupid

IS BENDEMEER NEARER TO BOON KENG OR LAVENDER.

fuck one tells me boon keng the other one tells me lavender & if im not wrong someone told me it's downnn the road from potong pasir OHHH MYYY GODDD. save me please.

oh yayy oh yayy, gonna work with my friends the entire week next week YAYYY. & i so can't wait for 6th march TONNING TONNING TONNING! hahaha! with tasha & a crazy bunch of kids :DDDDD

ah wells, i've got 45 mins left to waste. meeting them at 2pm & time seems to pass really really slowly D: ah damn IM HUNGRY! grrrr :/

im like telling myself

DAN YOU'RE GONNA MAKE LOTS OF NEW FRIENDS. YES YOU MUST. :/

samm even forbid me to do something. ahhhh damn it ): im sorry samm! i couldn't resist the temptation to msg him. AH FUCK I SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE THAT.

from now on im gonna try my very best to be
DAN
once again.
& make life colourful once again.

HAHAHAHA WTF yea right :/

i don't know what the fuck you want
fuck damn it.

i count every step you took,
walking further & further
i have no idea where you're going
but i know,
i guess,
you're not coming back.
since that night,
once again.
it's shattered
so long,
goodbye.

2008-02-24T21:44:00.003+08:00

dammnnn, i just came back from my new house. im damn shagg, like SHAGGG haha. stupid mann i had to dismantle this stupid rack that is two times taller that me, took me fucking 3 hours to dismantle :/

my gosh luh, i nearly wanted to curse & swear at whoever fixed up the rack, the bolts & nuts are like stupidly tight! SO TIGHT. :/

but, i had bubble tea to cheer me up & reward me for my hard work haha! YAY! :D

& guess what? i actually went to count how many playgrounds there were in my place.
i counted a total of
FOUR PLAYGROUNDS! :D
hahahah! so many new secret hideouts (:

fucking asshole, some fucker is like pressing the doorbell for no reason. stupid asshole. cb one more time you fucking ring the bell again im so gonna call the bloody police.

oh shit, okays nvm i take back my words, HAHA the person is stuck in the lift lol! geez, my brother just told me the lift showed "rescue in progress"HAHAH fuck. crap crap crap,

i take back my words

eh! amazingly my ear cartilage piercing doesn't much anymore YAY! no infection. HAHA DAMN YOU WHOEVER PIERCED MY EAR THE PREVIOUS TIME. gosh, i think she got fired. haha

i know this may sound dumb, but i wanna do this before & after thing for my new home HAHA. just gonna put the pictures of places where there would be major changes haha.

before it is renovated D:

haha this is actually the living room, it's bigger i managed to take 3/4 of it lol my dumbdumb brother's bag is in the middle of no where -.-

this is the stupid store room where the bloody rack was placed in, which took me 3 hours to dismantle :/ & that brown door looks really horrible haha

this is the kitchen! :D it's gonna be BLACK & RED (: & a tiny island table on the outside for us to have dinner together (: YAY

hahaha this is the toilet there's another part but im too lazy to take it. haha IT'S SO TINY ): ah wells, that ugly sink's gonna be torn apart. byebye sinky (:

byebye ugly wash basin (:

the rest of the nicer ones, wells will be shown one month later when i shift in HAHA

toodles (:

2008-02-24T14:07:00.002+08:00

im dead tired & i have no freaking idea why. most probably it could be because this entire week i've not been able to sleep i guess. mannn, i should stop thinking & stop listening to emo songs. HAHA. ah wells, they're really good + bad help.

i seriously think im torturing myself. :/ nono, this is sooo not good. cause lots of people will use all ways & means to kill me. even now grape sweets can't really help me much, cause im starting to run out of them ): now i don't really know what helps.

ALTERNATIVES PLEASE.

ah wells, i'll be shifting back to tpy when school reopens & i'll be in staying in my new house. THERE'S A PLAYGROUND DOWNSTAIRS MY HOUSE! hahahahaha!

& no im not wanting to play there. playground is my new secret hide out, kind of. especially in the middle of the night, when you're not feeling yourself. just go to the playground, it's good (:

OMFG! NOOOOOO! IT CAN'T BEEEE! NOOOOO! ): someone that i HATE okay maybe dislike A LOT (x 9783748567234 times) is going to RP noooooooooooooooooooooo

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?!!?!??!?!?! *@&$#*@(#*!&#$*@*&#

sigh, this sucks BIG BIG TIME D:

okays im off to my new house now, gotta clear some things there before they start hacking the entire house. heh.

what if i still do care even though i seem not to
what if i don't know where i've been to lately
what if i can't get my heart back where it used to be
what if i can't be the same old dan you used to know
what if i just can't forget certain things
what if i was to find & lose something at the same time again
what if one day im gone
what if i still need help
what if i made the wrong decision that time
what if i had let you down

sometimes things change so fast it makes my throat hurt from inside out

wtf, this is so un-dan-ish
sigh

2008-02-20T15:51:00.003+08:00

She is holding the gun that's a blow-dryer up to her head, when I ask. "What's the next thing after love?"

"What?"

The stuff I need to say is all tangled up. "You love Manson, right?"

The dog hears his name and smiles. "Well, sure," she says.

"And you love Daddy more than that?"

She looks down at me. "Yes."

"And you love me even higher?"

Her eyebrows fly. "True."

"So what comes after that?"

She lifts me and put me on the edge of the sink. The countertop is warm where the blow-dryer has been sitting; it just might be alive. For a minute, she thinks hard. "The next thing after love," she tells me, "is being a mom."

2008-02-20T15:25:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA IM SO FUCKING GOD DAMN HAPPY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I FUCKING PASSED MY YEAR 1!!!!!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

hahahhahahah had a bloody good laugh at someone this morning, cause he didn't have a single sense of direction. HAHAHAHAHA. kidding luh (: & yea i know you can't live without me, cause you said it yourself. HAHHAAHHAHAHAHA bloody crap mann.

met jadey & retard, haha my goodness luh both of them were like challenging each other to this typing speed test. freaking funny, both their reactions. HAHA

retard YOU SUCK at typing
jade YOU ARE MUCH BETTER than him hahahahahaha :DDDD
& jade said "OF COURSE"
i bet retard is gonna practice his typing till he gets to the speed of jade HAHA

mann now im like stuck at coffee bean, so darn lazy to go elsewhere haha :DDDDD im starting to get addicted to MW's coffee bean in city hall :DDDDD

CHAY CHAY CHAY :D haha okays im overjoyed (:

jade's still typing the speed test thingy -.- idiot.

2008-02-17T21:07:00.001+08:00

okays SET.

my mom allows me to dye my hair red
maybe not that kind of bright eh? HAHAHA
2 weeks before school i shall go dye if i've got the time (:
i love my mom mann.

2008-02-17T17:37:00.002+08:00

as usual im back heh. ah wells, went to check out the floor tiles for the new house. & AH YES IT'S TOTALLY BLACK! hahaha BLACK KITCHEN, red & black cabinets HAHA you rock mom. i guess im so gonna love my new house. haha

IM LEARNING HOW TO PLAY "WHEN YOU'RE GONE" the acoustic version
YAY! learning & still practicing HEEEE :D
i LOIKE! (happy now gay -.- idiot)
it's a really EMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO song, but i still LOIKE it. haha

mann this may sound crazy.
but...

I WANNA DYE MY HAIR RED

this time i don't care gonna find some way to dye my hair red. hahaha! even if im going to come up with some stupid excuse saying that "having red hair scares off cockroaches, which im damn afraid off" i also don't care.

haha i've been wanted to dye my hair red since sem 1 but samm & jade thought i was madd :/ah wells, my two brothers want me to dye my hair red for them too -.- cause why? they can't dye theirs so they rather i dye mine (they're kind of experimenting which colour suits my hair though)

ahhh i don't know luh.
nvm, i shall cut my hair, definitely not short, & dye it (please not purple, gay shut up i know you're laughing cause you're the idiot who asked me to dye purple -.-) a few days before school starts, which is.... around 7th april! :DDDD

YES! I CAN KINDA PLAY THE SONG ALREADY ((((((:
now left "Only Hope" ): it's really difficult to play it on the piano mann. D: who's got the piano chords for that song? tell me alrights? i really wanna know how to play it :/

now im going to try to learn "runaway train" :DDDDDDDDDDDD okays it's really easy. YAY i know how to play it now heee alrights i shall stop now. my fingers hurts! haha
now i kind of know how to play:
1.only hope ( a tiny puny bit, but it's fine with me)
2.runaway train
3.when you're gone

im so proud of myself! :DDDDDD
but sadly i had to cut my nails in order to play the guitar ): ah wells & now my fingers hurt. hahaha.

wah lao fuck off luh those irritating buggers. keep on asking whether i ate my fucking dinner or not. DAMN IRRITATING YOU KNOW! (especially when they ask you for like 928374892734 times in a whole day) bastard. & every single day without fail. irritating my posterior off. & please for my freaking's posterior sake stop making me seem like as if im really an idiot who would forget to eat her own dinner.

wah FUCK, qing yong just sent me a really EMOOOOOOOOOOO song ): hahaha but it's FUCKING OLD SCHOOL lol!

A1 - Everytime

HAHAHAHAHAHA

lately im not who i used to be
someone's come and taken me
where i don't wanna go
if i knew exactly what i have to do
in order to be there for you
when you were feeling low

and all the things we ever wanted
were once yours and mine
now, i know we can revive it
all the love we left

everytime i kiss i feel your leps and
everytime i cry i see your smile and
everytime i close my eyes i realise that
everytime i hold your hand in mine
the sweetest thing my hear could ever find
and i have never felt this way
since the day i gave your love away

save me, i've fallen from my destiny
you and i were meant to be
i've thrown it all away
now you're gone
it's time for me to carry on
but baby i just can't go on
without you by my side

and all the things we ever wanted
were once yours and mine
now, i know we can revive it
all the love we left

we can survive it
all the pain we feel inside
you relied on me and now i've let you down
now, i promise you forever
i will be the best i can
now, i know we can revive it
all the love we left

mannn how emo can he get mann, now he wants to be a rockstar HAHAHA. more like a singer i guess. lol.

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! my mommy just told me that next year most probably we're gonna get a doggie! :D she wants to get a toy poodle AHHHHHHHHHHHH MY FAVOURITE! HEEEEEEEEE:DDDDDDDD so happy now :D

i dreamt of you.
woke up.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
i found myself crying.

fuck damn it
it can't be helped.
i think i need help.

2008-02-16T18:54:00.002+08:00

please for God's sake next time, when you ask me for a fucking favour fucking make sure you're free. don't come & say sorry to me. cause you know how much i fucking hate last min cancellation. bloody hell, went all the way down to tpy earlier cause i had some errands to run, you ended up msging me saying you can't meet me today, meet me another day without giving me any reasons. if you could only take bloody initiative to msg me the night before to tell me you can't make it but no, you preferred to switch off your fucking phone.

& samm if you're seeing this, it's not you. so yea, no worries.

fuck you luh, nbcb. waste my time, i so wanted ice cream that badly to cool myself off but ah fuck no one was free. imagine eating ice cream by yourself, i think i'll look like some bloody retard. so NVM, i went to run my errands for tuition really really slowly.

okays now i feel better,
so so much better.
haven't been so pissed off in a ka-zillion years.
~~that's why i said,~~
~~you wouldn't want to see me pissed off.~~

after much rantings, running of errands, listening to my favourite happy/so called emo songs, taking really long bus rides, which made my posterior hurt so much after that especially my tail bone, & eating maggie mee which im not suppose to (who fucking cares anyways) i finally started laughing (:

which is a good thing

that song,
it just reminds me of somethings
it hurts,
it still hurts.
cann someone take that pain away?

2008-02-15T14:49:00.002+08:00

at coffee bean now, ~~wasting my life away~~. haha i can't seem to open the damn bloody drink bottle! :/ i hate you bottle. & jade just said cb to the bottle HAHAHA. how retarded cann she get mann.

ah fuck the lion dance. bloody hell made me jump out of the chair! :/ haha ah wells, YAY coffee for meeee :D

yes finally Peace & Quiet. like FINALLY my gosh.

seriously, i wonder why some people just don't fucking understand the word "no" or an even more detailed sentence "i am not free". get that into that bloody brain of yours please, it's SIMPLE ENGLISH! mann.

which part of the sentence " i am not free" do you not understand?

& no i do not wish to watch a movie with you. cause who knows you may end up doing things that is gross, disgsting & freaky. so what if you're bored, there's so many other people you cann ask out, so please don't bother coming to me & ask me out. cause for me, once you ask me the first thing that comes into my mind is "NO" & nothing you say or do is gonna change my mind mann.

& I DON'T LIKE YOU.
fuck off.

okays fine, now i took up another tuition assignment. ANOTHER PRIMARY ONEE! hehe! love this job as a private tutor mann.

love it love it love it love it love it love it love it love it love it love it love it love it love it love it!

haha ah wells,
once upon a time, there was a very bored little girl

so she decided to use her laptop, but it didn't seem to entertain her much.
so she started to play with her sunglasses.

& mannn she made me addicted to her sunglasses that i wanted to wear it too!

& i realised, she's got very bad photography skills,

cause you can see her big big thumb there. HAHAHAHA

& now she doesn't want to friend me cause i said she's got bad photography skills. HAHAHAHA

now jade wants to invade my blog now. damn it. haha

Jadey is currently invading!!

wahaha. i am here to invad that bitchy dan blog.
INVATION IN PROGRESS!!
~no disturb disturb!!

im not a ~~bitch~~ like what jade said,
i will only be one if i want to (:
or maybe if you make me pissed off (which hardly happens)

2008-02-14T22:20:00.002+08:00

DAVID ARCHULETA'S FREAKING HOTT! :DDDD
hahahaha! but he's like 16 & he sings really well! (that's what i think)
I LIKE HIS VOICE, SO DREAMMMMMY! (:
ahhhhh i so hope he wins! :D

& i like DANNY NOREIGA TOO!! hahahahahahaha! :DDDDDDD
his voice's good toooooooo. mannnnn. haha

i had ice cream today & im a happy kid now! hahahaha.
rushed through the project & mann i never got such a mental block before
but ah wells, i still manage to pull it through :D

chalet tmr but mannnn, jade's not staying over D:
ah wells, nvm shall head home with her tmr. fuck luh. pasir ris all the way to chinese gardens luh! wth cannn! ): SOOOO FARRRRR ):

coffee bean coffee bean coffee bean coffee bean coffee bean! tmr we're going to coffee bean!

YAY!
i think so. hahahaha

BYE! :D

2008-02-13T20:25:00.003+08:00

im at shi han's house now! :D finally could rest my poor legs heh.

woke up at 0545 & i have no freaking idea why. i think im going crazy mann. hahaha. & i happily replied gay's bloody sms & he woke up HAHAHA. ah wells, sorry gay! heh.

anyways after that went to vivocity cause stupid retard msg me in the morning to say to change venue. :/ went to vivo walked around mannnn, the best thing to do to waste time is - go to the toilet. (: best way to waste time. hahaha.

I SAW TINY DOGGIES! my goodness, so cute luh please! heeee! :D i want a doggie or a pair of hamsters for my birthday *HINT HINT to gay* HAHAHAHAH. :D i kind of changed my wish list. lol.

then after that met manisha at bishan haha oh wells, we had lots of fun finding handphones shops & all. :DD i had lots of fun alrights? haha (: i hope you didn't get bored with me, next time after your exams alrights? (:

right after that went straight to shi han's house! her hamsters are soooooooooooooooooooooo CUTE! i want ONE! or no,

maybe TWO!

or nonono

THREE :D

oh mann, i can't make up my mind. i just want MANY! heeeeeeeee! &&&&& it must be those rare breed okays? *HINT HINT AH GAY!* hahahaha!

this rocks,

out the whooooooooooooole day (:

but tmr?

mannn i have no freaking idea how to pass my time :/

serenade me,

i liooke

2008-02-12T23:51:00.000+08:00

okays i shall post a short short post before i get kicked out of internet connection again.

BUSY BUSY BUSY! (:
kind of good being busy though.

tmr im so gonna stay in bishan the whole entire day. HAHAHA
1.meet up with my brother
2.meet up with MANISHA! :D
3. go to audrey's house!

LONG LONG DAY! weeeee! :D

mann, i've got lots of tuition work to do now HEEEEEEEEEE
nvm keep me busy! more busy!
so i can stop thinking (:

I AM FREAKING BORED ):

You go up down turn around merry go round and
round
shake it shake it two times dose doe cotten eyed joe
run around pull me down never gonna come around
I’m never gonna forget you

2008-02-10T19:43:00.000+08:00

pisses the fuck out of me,

when im finally online,

no one is. ah wells..

IM BACK IN TOA PAYOH.

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :DDDD

okay that was damn bloody random, ah wells. peee.

random, random, random! i feel like screaming my lungs out, i don't know why. been so to myself this entire month. & that feeling's really fucked up.

geez, i think i would be back in toa payoh practically every sunday. heeeeeee :D still deciding on when to shift back home. ah geez, but im so happy there & here. fuck, i can't decide :/ NVM, i'll leave the decision to be done later.

procrastination (:

that's my favourite word.

wells, CNY... geez, it wasn't anything at all. practically went to one place, stayed there & died there. haha i was kind of bored with a capital B.

a list of things that we -W14q little people (= could do tomorrow:

1. watch a movie

2. play mahjong

3. go singing

4. go drinking

5. go somewhere nice to eat

number 5 sounds really appetizing to me. HAHA fooooooood :D yummmy, i want my ice creams!! nonono, maybe we should have dinner at city hall, at makansutra :DDD mannn my stomach's growling already heeeeee :D

i seriously have crazy brothers, i am in the room blasting my music & i could actually hear all three of them shouting "BEHIND, BEHIND! LOOK BEHIND YOU!" my goodness luh, the whole house is sure gonna tumble down cause of their shouting. hah.

haha YAY outing outing! i so can't wait, one with mani, another with sammmmm, another with the little clique. yay yay fun fun fun! :D

had fun with timtim bestfriend yesterday. omggg seriously damn funny, the whole day i was kind of clumsy, nearly falling every where. haha! he was so afraid i would fall down the stairs HAHA super funny.

THANKS FOR THE TREAT! NEXT IS MINE OKAYS? :D YAYYYYYYY. i so can't wait for the entire week! weeeeeeeeee! :D

monday - going out for a movie

tuesday - tutoring my little ones

wednesday - w14q "clique" outing! :D

thurs - valentine's date with sammm ( maybe clubbing after that i think, see whether clique's free haha)

fri - papa lyd's birthday chalet :DDDD tonning! weeeeeeee.

sat - sleep sleep sleep

sun - meet mummy!

weeeeeeeeeee. i should keep myself occupied the entire week mann, so i won't think so much. heeeeeeeh. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :DDDDD

2008-02-07T13:31:00.000+08:00

geez, im still sitting in front of the computer at home :/

& my amanda's already at grandma's house & she's kind of alone. haha poor girl, i bet she'll get damn bored after a while. heh. better rush there now before she kills me or something, cause i told her i'll be there early. (but im not, cause im like still preparing) HAHA.

oh wells, now waiting for my mom to get ready. MOMMY'S HOT mann. haha

ah wells i shall upload the CNY pictures if i ever get to use my laptop + the internet (: heh LOTS OF PICTURES :D i think

BYEBYE! (:

2008-02-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

fuck luh, damn emo now ):

im still holding on to the past
why?

2008-02-06T13:56:00.000+08:00

I'll live well,
waiting for the day when I know you would love me back

daniellia chan hui ling is BACK! :D

for one night though,
damn it.

omg omg omg omg omg! my mommy bought me my favourite grape sweets! :Di thought the grape sweets that i like was extinct! hahaha! :DDD she bought the whole packet for me! YAY! but i think would finish them in a day :/ nvm I'LL GET MORE FROM MY SWEET SUPPLIER WHO USED TO GIVE ME THOSE GRAPE SWEETS, RIGHT? it's a really big hint to you if you are reading this HAHA. kidding! (:

HAHAHAHA well, life's been rather EMPTY, but ah wells still good i guess. got two assignments (: my little students are so cute please (: stress now though, not a single clue on what to give them hahaha. i can't bear to give homework! cause i don't like homework either :/

oh wells, i've got no choice. I STILL GAVE HOMEWORK, cause im their tutor HAHAHA. ah wells, at least i've got a stable income now :DDDD that puts my mind at ease though (:

mann i went to take a SHORT nap that i told pretty face i would, but i ended up sleeping till 7 HAHAHA i hoped those who talked to me wouldn't get pissed off especially gay partner :S I WAS SLEEPING! THAT'S WHY I DIDN'T REPLY YOU!

sorry gay partner! ):

all i knew was when i was sleeping, my phone kept ringing. & when i checked it. fuck, the person that i didn't want to receive any msg from, msged me & called me "princess" YUCKS LUH. so sick! ): i think im doomed. oh mannn.

i think i shall go turn lesbian.

i wanna cry already luh ): & stop laughing, i know you are laughing. it's not funny ): nearly made me cry yesterday night when you said those things ):

okay this is really random but, pretty face said i've got a uber cute voice HAHAHA especially on the day when i tuned his guitar. AWWWW, that's nice pretty face. HAHAHA. :D thanks anyways :D

okays since pretty face complimented me, i shall compliment pretty face,
wells, pretty face
ermmm...

YOU'VE GOT A PRETTY FACE :D
it's a good thing (: cause majority of girls like pretty faces.
pretty boy! haha

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where you are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.

2008-01-31T13:13:00.000+08:00

omggggg i did something really really embarrassing yesterday night, thank goodness my friend didn't get the "joke". my goodness, if the "joke" was like kind of exposed, i'll be so embarrassed that i can migrate to other countries mann.

haha geez, one more day till i disappear for 2 months or maybe forever. haha :/ nvm (: anything you guys can try to call me or whatsoever (:

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

shit, goddammit.
i miss you like fuck.

2008-01-30T12:42:00.000+08:00

Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i?d left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here

2008-01-30T11:32:00.000+08:00

oh my God, qing yong has just influenced me to start singing to my msn.
now it's an addiction, we both are like typing song lyrics & singing like some assholes.

STOP SINGING QING YONG!

okays he kind of stopped,

OKAY MAYBE NOT!

HAHAHAHAHA. omg, im so not paying attention in class.
all i see is NUMBERS & more NUMBERS D:

i realised,
i haven't tuned a guitar in years & samm wants me to do it tmr.
HAHAHAA my fingers & listening skills are RUSTY :/

2008-01-29T16:18:00.000+08:00

so happened to browse through all my old photos.
didn't delete any photos at all [:

haha wtf
old & crazy times, i swear it was madness.

omg i can't believe i still have this picture. HAHA! i look so retarded.
still remembered we used to hang out real often hahaha FUNNY DAYS [:

& this MY GOSH! camwhoring freaks. we still are i guess HAHA. OMG so many funny photos are popping out.

ahhh so much fun times, I WANT IT BACK NOWWWWWW [:

im fine, really fine [: i guess im kind of prepared it's really really gone.

i guess...
all that remains are just

happy memories

2008-01-29T11:00:00.000+08:00

met baby darling yuanmay yesterday night for job hunting (: (omg that sounded dammmmmn gay. YAY!) had lots of fun though haha. we headed straight down to paragon cause she wanted me to work there. haha

but ah wells, instead of looking for jobs i kind of got distracted you know. & i can't stand the environment - too quiet, I CAN'T STAND IT. it's too quiet. & i was the only one making noise there. okays!

conclusion: DAN IS NOT SUITED TO WORK THERE.

so we ended up walking around paragon haha. walked into every shop. yea both our future ambitions are to earn big big bucks & shop there. HAHAHA.

ym: ahhh, the bag's so nice (:
me: when you earn your first big big bucks buy me a bag from here! :D
ym: no i'll buy it for myself
me: DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:

HOW EMO IS THAT! SHE WOULDN'T BUY ME A BAG FROM THERE! DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD: haha kidding luh (: then i bumped into shannnnnnnnnnon there. omggg please don't call my full name can. haha

after that walked to hereen then fareast. on the way there bumped into ZULLLL (the funny one) haha he was with his girlfriend (aww so sweet (:) went for this interview, MY GOSH he was talking so monotonously i swear! i could fall asleep anytime during the interview though it was noisy.

he was so bloody soft, ym & i were like HUH? what did you say? dammmmmmn boring, i just wanted to leave my number and walk off. but noooo he had to carry on talking and talking. :/ forget it mannn. haha

&&&&&&&&!!! i received a BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG GOOD NEWS FROM TIMTIM. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i was jumping around far east like some asshole who's won lottery.

TIMTIM GOT THE STARBUCKS JOB HE WANTED! HAHAHAHAHA FUCK MANN IT'S HIGH TIME I GET A JOB NOW. gonna get starbuckkkkkkkkkkkksssssssss HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA okays enough (:

was dead beat when i reached home :/ could be due to the marshmallows that i ate which kind of made me groggy. i could hardly open my eyes to finish watching "heroes".

HAHAHAHA THIS IS THE MOST HILARIOUS THING/FACT I EVER HEARD IN THIS ENTIRE WEEK (:

girls + rock = ohmygod im in heaven
rock = drive & motivation
girls = my reason to live

HAHAHA SERIOUSLY I SWEAR,
fuck mann. hahaha

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do?

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

2008-01-28T11:52:00.000+08:00

Call you up in the middle of the night,
Like a firefly without a light,
You were there like a blow torch burning,
Was a key that could use a little turning.

So tired that I couldn't even sleep,
So many secrets I couldn't keep,
Promise myself I wouldn't weep,
One more promise I couldn't keep.

It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep there's no way out,
This time I really,
Have lead myself astray.

Runaway train never going back,
Wrong way on a one way track,
Seems like I should be getting somewhere,
Somehow I'm neither here nor there.

Can you help me remember how to smile,
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile,
How on earth did I get so jaded,
Life's mystery seems so faded.

I can go where no one else can go,
I know what no one else knows,
Here I am just drowning in the rain,
With a ticket for a runaway train.

And everything is cut and dry,
Day and night earth and sky,
Somehow I just,
Don't believe it.

Runaway train never going back,
Wrong way on a one way track,
Seems like I should be getting somewhere,
Somehow I'm neither here nor there.

Bought a ticket for a runaway train,
Like a madman laughing at the rain,
A little out of touch a little insane,
It's just easier than dealing with the pain.

Runaway train never going back,
Wrong way on a one way track,
Seems like I should be getting somewhere,
Somehow I'm neither here nor there.

Runaway train never coming back,
Runaway train's tearing up the track,
Runaway train burning in my veins,
Runaway but it always seems the same.

2008-01-28T09:46:00.000+08:00

i wish you all the best with shihui. i really have nothing to say now, all i know is that you can't be bothered. msged you yesterday & you didn't reply. nvm it's alright. i really wish you all the best with her, you want to patch with her, i won't care either. now you're talking to her so much, it's alright why should i bother when you don't even bother much?

im okay, i guess.
i really am (:
from now i'll officially moving on.

2008-01-25T12:48:00.000+08:00

There i was waiting for a chance
hoping that you'll understand
the things i wanna say

As my love
is stronger than before
i wanna see you more and more
but you close the door

Why don't you try
to open up your heart
i won't take so much of your time

Maybe it's wrong to say please love me too
cause i know you never do
somebody else is waitin' there inside for you
maybe its wrong to love you more each day
coz i know she's here to stay
but i know to whom you should belong

I believe what you said to me
we should set each other free
that's how you want it to be

but my love is strong
i don't know if this is wrong
but i know to whom you should belong

fuck this song is super sad ):
im sad too, it kind of depicts how i feel now ):

2008-01-25T09:59:00.000+08:00

my life officially sucks luh can

i miss you S
do you know?

2008-01-24T09:45:00.000+08:00

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A lonely road Crossed another cold state line Miles away from those I love Purpose hard to find While I recall All the words you spoke to me Can't help but wish that I was there Back where I'd love to be Dear God The only thing I ask of you Is to hold him when I'm not around When I'm much too far away We all need a person who can be true to you But he left me when I found him And how I wish He'd stayed Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again Once again There's nothing here for me On this barren road There's no one here while the city sleeps And all the shops are closed Can't help but think Of the times I've had with you Pictures and some memories You'll have to help me through Dear God The only thing I ask of you Is to hold him when I'm not around When I'm much too far away We all need a person who can be true to you But He left me when I found him And how I wish He'd stayed Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again Once again Some search, never finding a way Be fore long, they waste away I found you, something told me to stay And how I miss to hold you When hope begins to fade A lonely road Crossed another cold state line Miles away from those I love Purpose hard to find Dear God The only thing I ask of you Is to hold him when I'm not around When I'm much too far away We all need a person who can be true to you But He left me when I found him And how I wish He'd stayed Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again Once again

2008-01-23T12:34:00.000+08:00

i don't know why you're making such a big fuss,
i really don't.
but after all those things you said to me,
it really made me broke down.

i refused to listen,
to listen to anyone.
& i still refuse. but after hearing those things that you said, coming out from your own mouth.
im shattered,
into a million pieces.
i really don't know how to pick myself up again.
& i think i never will.

im really confused,
first you say those things like as if you still do care,
you still do love me.
but now, what you're doing.
it really makes me so confuse at what to do.
i have never love someone so much,
give up so much for someone,
so much till im still keeping every single thing that has got to do with us.
pictures, presents, comments
all are kept,
but i guess you threw everything away.
you can bear to do it,
but i can't.
cause i still love you so much,
but you just deleted everything & changed everything like a breeze.
do you know how much it hurts?
no you don't,
cause i didn't do it to you & you did.
i guess i shall never trust anything again.

putting so much trust into this relationship,
i seriously don't know what to say to you anymore.
i've already said my piece.
the rest is up to you,
now im just tired.
stop torturing me & tell me what you want.
but i still do not want to believe those are the things you wanna do,
"go your own way & i'll go mine"
i really don't wish to believe it ):

i really don't,
but it's really the last straw.
it is, you've broken my heart till it can no longer be broken anymore.
im numb in the heart.

i don't want to think,
i don't want to know anything,
anymore.

2008-01-22T15:24:00.000+08:00

i am officially bored.
ah wells, i don't need to be officially bored. what the crap.

1. last beverage
Milo?

2. last phone call
Kennedy

3. last cd played
i seriously can't remember haha

4. last time you cried?
yesterday night?

5. last text message to
leonard lai +timtim (both at the same time)

SIX HAVE YOU EVERS:>
1. dated someone twice?
erm yea more than that actually (i can't really remember how many times though)
2. been cheated on?
sadly yes, many times

3. kissed someone & regretted it?
hehe not really. hahahaha

4. lost someone special?
just did

5. been depressed?
many times

6. been drunk and threw up?
i just got sleepy after that

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
can i list more than that?
1. black
2. white
3. purple
green & red

LAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
1. Made a new friend
duh.

2. Laughed until you cried
yes, almost everyday, especially when samm's around haha

3. Met someone who changed your life
just did, made me a hateful person

4. Found out who your true friends were
yes, i even found out many still do care after what i did ):

5. Is there something you want to tell someone?
yea there is, but he doesn't bother listening to what i have to say anymore

6. How many kids do you want to have?
twins or maybe 1 son & a daughter

7. Do you have any pets?
used to have hamsters but they died of old age ):

8. Do you wanna change your name
nah i like the name my mom gave me

9. What did you do yesterday?
ehhh, ate pizza hut with samm & jade, went shopping with jadeee. replied leonard lai's random msg. painted my nails hot pink, washed my face. do i have to say every single thing?

10. Last time You had pizza?
omg yesterday & it was damn bloody good.

11. What time did you wake up today?
0720am, didn't wanna wake up though.

12. What were you doing at 10:30 p.m
last night? entertaining kai feng? cause he said he was bored.

13. Name something you CANNOT wait for?
start work & earn moolahs + semester to start

14. Last time you saw your father?
12 years ago?

15. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?
never met you & suffer

16. What are you listening to right now?
my faci ranting on & on about the ppt.

17. Have you ever talked to Tom?
I just realised, i don't have any friends who is called Tom. haha

18. Who's getting on your nerves right
no one

19. Most visited webpage?
friendster and my blog haha

20. Coke or Pepsi?
coke

21. Have you seen anyone naked in the past week?
nope & i don't wish to.

geez i think im really bored.

2008-01-22T09:38:00.000+08:00

DAMN IT im freaking pissed off! fine you want to forget me so badly?
FINE! SO BE IT!
i'll freaking delete everything since that's what you want so badly?
SO BADLY TO FUCKING FORGET ME!
fine! FORGET FOR ALL I FUCKING CARE.

2008-01-21T10:32:00.000+08:00

okays people, dan is officially back! though she can't really be herself for the time being. but no worries, she'll be fine. she needs lots and lots of time for the fucking wound to heal properly.

saturday
yes sat, met timtim in town for a game of pool. BUT. it seems we did otherwise. heh. he was suppose to cheer me up but ah wells, we ended up emo-ing to each other (kind of)HAHA. wtf. so much for my "cheering up and forgetting about everything day" + "pool day". heh.

met timtim at the mrt, we happily walked up the entrance that was closed down few days ago. BEST. & we had to walk back down. timtim said im fairer D: wtf i so need tanning. WHO'S INTERESTED IN GOING SENTOSA? :D & timtim couldn't stop talking in an american slang. omg, it was hilarious but after a while it was pissing me off & timtim couldn't stop talking that way cause he's been talking like that for 30 mins? geez, the madness please.

walked around town looking for a place to play pool. but happily it was ALL full. basket. so not my day to play pool. so we kind of window shopped or just walked around? ah wells, after that we headed down to coffee bean to slack around. weren't suppose to like emo, but we kind of talked about some things & i felt emo after that. shared the super sugar drink but sadly didn't it didn't give both of us sugar rush which i needed badly.

didn't feel like heading home, so we headed down i forgot where but still somewhere in town. yea, so walked around a bit more & around 9? haha we took a bus back. YES finally i found someone staying in my area HAHA. ah wells, it's great now we all can have more pool outings (: then timtim sent me back (cause i guessed i was tiny and puny & he was afraid i would get kidnapped haha). ah wells i didn't feel any better but i managed to fall asleep like finally. geez

sunday
woke up REALLY early, i don't know why i just can't sleep. checked my phone, hoping somehow i would receive a msg that i want. but sadly no, nothing. & it's impossible i guess. sigh, im wishing too much.

waited for grandma to come home, watched some television. when she came home, ate my lunch and got ready to go to bugis to shop. OMG, seriously NEVER EVER go to bugis on a SUNDAY especially when CNY is around. you have to squeeze around like some bloody mouse.

I LOVE MY GRANDMA seriously. i love her to bits. she actually let me like shopped really like a lot, i NEVER EVER shopped so much in my entire life! 150 bucks spent on clothes and she said i need to shop for more clothes! :DDD she made me feel so much better.

shopping spree is officially a method to cure my broken heart (provided i have the money = working hard)

then went down to chinatown with my grandma to get some of her stuffs. & wells i had lots of shocking things happened. leo ACTUALLY msged me HAH! rather concerned & more talkative eh? hmmm changes in him i see. haha.

shocking discovery = leo is actually TALKATIVE omg he couldn't just stop talking. which is a good thing i guess. no longer the boring person he used to be.

ah wells enough of it. i just had a shopping spree & it was fantastic. went home around 9 plus & i packed my new year clothes. from now on im going to dress pretty, i don't care.

i just hope i'll be fine.
i just hope everything will be back to normal.
i just hope that i can have you back.
but,
you said it can't be & i have to take it.
fine, it's alright. sigh i'll just do whatever you say if it makes you happy.
though it definitely isn't making me feel any better (but worse).
that's the only thing i can do to prove that i still love you.
im sorry.

2008-01-18T12:21:00.001+08:00

just cry dan,
you're alone,
just cry.
when you're alone, when no one's watching,
you cry.

just cry dan, cry

you've changed, changed so much
that i miss your old self. wtf happened to you?
why have you changed?
can't you go back to your old usual self?
you used to be such a lovely, caring boyfriend.
but,
what do i see now?
a person who doesn't care much about anything,
a person who doesn't care what he says to me, whether it would hurt me or not
a person who's changed but can't see it
a person who no longer loves me like he used to
i dislike that new person
i want the old person back,
please.

it's killing my heart

when u are tired u got my chest to rest on , when u are sad u have my shoulder to cry on , when u are angry u gt me to hit on and when u are lonely u got me to accompany u and last of all when u need me , i will always be there loving and caring for u !

then where are you now?
you're not the same anymore,
think about it.
go see,
all evidence are there.

2008-01-18T10:46:00.000+08:00

I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I say
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

i don't understand,
im confused,
im lost,
would you pick me up again?
i don't know.
why you had to go?

FUCK TIME LUH

it's just an excuse for you to run away.

2008-01-17T10:10:00.000+08:00

My tears run down like razorblades 
And no, I'm not the one to blame 
It's you or is it me? 
And all the words we never say 
Come out and now we're all ashamed 
And there's no sense in playing games 
When you've done all you can do 

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over? 
We had the chance to make it 
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over 
I wish that I could take it back 
But it's over 

I lose myself in all these fights 
I lose my sense of wrong and right 
I cry, I cry 
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head 
I just wanna crawl into my bed 
And throw away the life I led 
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die 

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over? 
We had the chance to make it 
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over 
I wish that I could take it back 

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart 
Don't say this won't last forever 
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart 
Don't tell me that we will never be together 
We could be, over and over 
We could be, forever 

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart 
Don't say this won't last forever 
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart 
Don't tell me that we will never be together 
We could be, over and over 
We could be, forever 

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over 
Unless you let it take you 
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over 
Unless you let it break you 
It's not over






those people who were always there for me, thanks.
though now im not myself,
& i know you guys want me back to be my crazy & silly self
just let me be for the time being i guess.

someone once told me,
there's no way you can get mentally prepared for it.
because no matter what you do to try and prepare for it,
it's still gonna hurt.
what you can do now, is cherish the time you spend with him
and hold on to the many wonderful memories you have.
be strong dumbdumb.

thanks yea?


so empty & blank.
you'll never know how it feels to be told those things
if only you could put in as much effort into this relationship as much you put effort
& perseverance for your bball

2008-01-16T14:44:00.000+08:00

im sorry, maybe it's just me.
but i miss you ):
it hurts,
so so much ):
for you im not sure, you say you're hurt.
do you know how much more am i hurt?
when you said those things to me? ):
you said it's your fault,
i don't blame you,
i just blame myself
for not being the person you want me to be

i love you

2008-01-14T14:42:00.000+08:00

i feel,

insecured, sigh

2008-01-14T14:24:00.000+08:00

there are many special people in your life,
but some are just beyond special, indescribable
& there can only be one person apart from God

sheldon yen jia jun jenny puipui

2008-01-14T13:12:00.000+08:00

sigh i miss you

but you said,
"don't need to say to me one luh"

SIGHHHHHHHHHH ):

2008-01-10T12:11:00.000+08:00

Only you can make this world seem right
Only you can make the darkness bright.
Only you and you alone
can thrill me like you do
and fill my heart with love for only you.

Only you can make this change in me,
for it's true, you are my destiny.
When you hold my hand,
I understand the magic that you do.

You're my dream come true,
my one and only you.

Only you can make this change in me,
for it's true, you are my destiny.
When you hold my hand,
I understand the magic that you do.

You're my dream come true,
my one and only you.

One and only you.

2008-01-02T17:25:00.000+08:00

maybe im just complaining too much but

SOMETIMES IS WRONG WITH BABY

he's not himself,
he doesn't say things that he always say to me

now i don't feel
loved
or
missed.

I DON'T KNOW

damn it luh.

maybe im asking for too much.

im not going to say anything already,
sigh.
no more imy,
it hurts even more when i say &
it seems to be ignored.

but i just can't bring myself to say it
sigh

2007-12-31T11:32:00.000+08:00

just finished reading fitri's blog. omg im like so touched by what he said T.T ahhh & he kind of motivated to me to do the same for others :D cause oh wells, today's the eve of new year. this was what i saw in his blog

Looking back on the months gone by,
As a new year starts and an old one ends,
We contemplate what brought us joy,
And we think of our loved ones and our friends.

& yes it made me think about my loved ones and my friends (: 2007 though it seems to be a very bad year for me, for those who always heard of my complains tsk tsk, but i guess some good has came out of those bad times (: we always have to think of the positive ways right? heh! that's what fitri told me before. i still remember okays! haha another one that i will always remember is baby's one "aiya! don't care luh!" HAHAHA that never fails to cheer me up (:

one is "looking at another point of view" the other one is "bo chap attitude" okay maybe it should not be explained in that way, maybe it should be "don't care & just be happy attitude" (: hahaha!

the best advises of both worlds! what more do i want? (:

alrights i shall start with the massive typing now!

sheldon yen jia jun jenny puipui
haha omg i think your name will just get longer & longer & longer lol! haha i just can't resist the temptation to give you new names (: it's nice. yes, we've been together for 5 months coming to half a year already & i want to thank you for always being there for me & you are like POWER sia! haha for:
1. being able to stand my pms for every month
2. never failing to make me laugh with dirty, clean & our personal inside jokes heh (:
3. never failing to show me how much you care & love me T.T
4. always giving me lovely surprises though some fail because of me, lol =p
5. your continuous questioning of how much i love you haha (:
6. the retarded faces & actions you always do (: now recently you invented " you're nudging me" action & you don't really care what others think, so long i smile (:
7. whenever i am down, upset & depressed, you're always my superman who's always there for me to comfort me & cheer me up again
8. being able to stand me for being such a big cry baby! haha!
i love you baby (: we can go through whatever obstacles that is placed in front of us, i know we can. have faith beebee (: i think if i were ever to lose you, i'll just die okay. just die. or maybe i'll shave my brother's head & let him kill me instead. &&&&&! last but not least, i love every moment spent with you beebee (:
forever & ever remember? (:
forever & ever,
always & always,
i love you sheldon yen jia jun! <3

p.s. i like it when you whine though, HAHAHAH super cute :DDD i can't stand being angry with you (: love love

fitri
okays tree you're next! hahahaha! wahh thanks ah for saying this "Dan is my wonderwoman,my angel and will always be my good good good good friend. I would break down and shave my head bald if I ever lose her as a friend." HAHAHAHA IM SO TOUCHED MAN! lol. though we've been best of bestfriends for coming 6 months too! haha i know you know me inside out & i of course know you inside out too! haha duh!? we've seen each other's dark side, complained, whined, cursed, emo-ed & whatever we can think of (especially random stuffs which we always, or is it me? seem to do) hahaha! im glad that we have this great friendship! (: BETTER COME TO RP SO YOU CAN MEET MY OTHER GREAT FRIENDS & WE ALL CAN HAVE LUNCH TOGETHER! :DDDD makan ah! :D haha & you won't lose me as a friend luh! (unless you do something really evil to me that makes me never want to forgive you, grrrr... but that would never happen luh. hahahahah) so don't need to shave your head bald. lalala!
fried friends forever! omg so gay or maybe
fried friends for life! HAHAH GAY!
but i don't care! im gay! :D haha

no.1 (qy) & no.2(ken)
HAHAH BESTFRIEND NO.1 & 2! lol i know this came about quite a long time ago, it started with qy though -.- who started saying im his bestfriend & ken said "WHY AM I NOT YOUR BESTFRIEND!" hahahaha so that's how no.1 & 2 came about. super funny. they've been my bestfriends since the starting of school term, though we're all in separated classes we still do talk (:
okays i shall start with no.1
thanks for always saying crazy random stuffs HAAHAHAHA & making me laugh in my class making everyone think im crazy. haha. I MISS YOUR CRAZY LAUGHTER THOUGH! haha. wells, we all do. STOP TRYING TO ATTAIN IMMORTALITY CAN. OMGGGG that's the most random thing i ever heard of. & you kind of disappeared from this world man! where the hell are you! hahaha.
okays now no.2
thank you for being my emotional doctor as usual, always giving me advises that i can never think of most of the time (: & emotional doctors get emotional too. so no worries! when you're sad i can give you emotionally good advises HAHAHAHA. & no.1 seemed to have died somewhere at home? haha you can go save him. lol.

JADEEEEEEYYYYYY
we've been friends since we were i don't know? nursery 1? HAHAHAHA! that's freaking LONG. omg. haha yes we always fought, but now we're bestfriends! :D haha we always laugh at things. i still remember once i tried to see how this guy drooled & how many times he drooled when he was sleeping. & i actually made fun of you after that. lol! haha we both had great times and unhappy times with each other, but we somehow forgave each other (: i love you jadey! & if i were ever to lose you my friend, i seriously would not know what to do! & thanks for trying to make sheldon & i okay whenever we argued in front of you. hahahahaa & you always seem to wear yellow HAHAH STOP WEARING YELLOW LUH! lol

SAMMMMMMMMMM
hahaha i think too many "m"s already lol. samm though we only got to know you in secondary3 you've been a great friend to me! (: thanks for always giving me advices & cheering me up with those stupid emotions faces that you have. haha. (: I LOVE YOU SAMM! haha & samm REST WELL TOO! :DDDDD it's the hols, though there's only one week left though. HAHAHA i want to see the crazy samm soon in school! :D oh ya! when im shifting im so gonna stay so much closer to you! but further away from jade though ): pooo hahahaha

TIMMY!
haha thanks for giving me great ideas on what to do for certain things & always giving me advices. HAHA thanks for sharing your unhappy moments with me too lol though it kind of made me emo at times too HAHAHAH BUT OH WELLS! you're the best luh tim! (in randomness though) HAHAHAHAAHAHHAAH
the lion ate a banana and gave birth to a goat
that one i will never forget okays. wtf fucking random. lol

MANISHA!
thanks for giving me lovely presents most of the time. & im sorry im not able to give you presents too ): geez, im always bumping into you in your school whenever i go there. ahahahah we're so fated please! we always have lots to gossip & catch up about (: i miss those times! let's catch up soon yea? :D

YUAN MAY!
though you're in thailand now. I MISS YOU MAN! D: come back soon yuan! we've always shared our experiences and even got crazy over them. i love you girl! :D & i pray that your spiritual growth with God would get stronger each day :D i also love the hang outs that we have lalala! :D

2007-12-28T20:21:00.000+08:00

i am very disappointed, upset & i feel neglected
sigh ):

2007-12-28T00:28:00.000+08:00

okays im soooo afraid you never receive it so i shall put it in here hoping that you might see it :DDD

babbbby!
yes it's our 5 month anniversary already heh! i love you so so much! we have gone through a lot these 5 months and i know that our love for each other have grown stronger (: we've also shown how much we love each other and now after many incidents we've grown to cherish every moment that we share.
I LOVE YOU BABY!
& i want to be with you forever and ever!

always always, i love you! (:

2007-12-25T20:43:00.000+08:00

i never would have wanted to lose you
the feeling of losing you when we've both done nothing wrong is terrible.
i miss you every sec when you had to goo ):

but now,

im just glad that we're allowed to be together again :D
though we have restrictions
we both have to jia you!
i know you can do it baby!
i love you! :DD

2007-12-25T13:32:00.000+08:00

i have faith in you
i trust you
i believe that you'll be there when i need you

but

where are you now?
i need you so badly :(