Sunday, September 03, 2006
well i guess after two days i decided to blog abt this.
well actually it's just to get it out of my chest.
been feeling really guilt ridden and heavy
during these two days.
my uncle just passed away two nights
ago, it was rather sudden.
im actually still in shock.
i was actually doing my maths papers
to get ready for my maths paper two.
my mom accompanied me until
i decided to sleep. it was around 1 like
that after i msged
kf cause i was rather bored
then he wanted to sleep, so yea.
did somemore maths questions.
suddenly i just felt so tired. out of the
blue. at first i thought i wasn't tired but
then for no reason i was so tired, so i told my
mom let's go and sleep.
after washing up and getting ready to go to bed
suddenly i heard my mom banging
kenny's door
i thought what had happened.
when i went into the room i had the biggest shock of
my life. i saw his body. lifeless.
i started crying. then he kept calling him.
but he had no response. i felt useless.
not being able to do anything but just stand there
and look like a fool crying.
my mom was also in a daze. she was just as shocked as i,
so is my grandpa. then the paramedics came.
it was the most hurtful words i ever heard
in my entire life "he no longer got a heartbeat,
and his respiration stopped already"
this time i really couldn't take it. i broke
down. no one was awake only
darius and
michso i called him and started crying.
then i saw him being wheeled out of our house.
his face. i can never forget that face.
the next morning my mom woke me up and
said that he had gone back to the Lord.
i started crying agin. well, im still human
couldn't be helped. i was rather depressed
the whole morning. well i guess i've still got to move on
im sure he doesn't want to see me all sd for him like that.
and im sure he wants me to concentrate on my studies.
well tmr is his wake. i don't really know how am i
gonna reacte to it but we still got to send him
off. that will be the last time i will really see his face.sigh
im sure gonna miss him. especially
on sundays. now i've got to go to church
alone with my brother every sunday.
well im glad for my friends who were there for
me the whole day yesterday
dariusthanks for accompanying me to buy dinner
although it was quite a short while but
talking to you was great. thanks for being there for me (:
tommmythanks for msging me and accompanying me the whole
night yesterday. and NO. you don't need to take
off to accompany me it's alright (:
kfasshole you reminded me of him by accident.
aiya nvm it's not your fault. you didn't know
that was his favourtie song.
thanks for trying to console me the whole morning.
although it didn't really worked hah. but,
yea thanks anyways. thanks for giving me the title by
bon jovi "i'll be there for you"
yea i know you'll be there for me (: thanks
but i can't keep the promise that you
want me to promise you
yea, so sorry
sandraSANDRA! YOU'RE THE BEST (:thanks for
comforting me too. i really felt better after
talking to you (:
<3
manishayou ah! thought my mom died -.-
you heard wrongly larh. and YES it was
me on the phone. did i really sound that different?
must be because i didn't sleep the whole night and
because of all the crying.
karenTHANKS KAREN! for changing the subject
and making me laugh at your "joke" huh?
actyally it was your reaction that made me
laugh. crazy larh you (:
thanks guys (:
<3s
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